Nonchalant

2009-11-18T09:06:00.000+08:00

I really really really missed the people I have trained with back at the national training. Jiao Lian, Puiseng, Xuanyi, Uncle and Walter. I will really love to train with side by side with you people again. But right now the time does not allow me to do so.=/
Life seems to get more and more busy for me each day. And I have to settle for my priorities.

I really hope for the chance to train with you again. But it will be very rude to come irregulary for training so maybe I should not turn up at all? I do not know what should I do really.

I missed everyone especially you. Sigh.

2009-11-08T20:29:00.002+08:00

I so want to lay my grubby hands on this movie. OSU~!

2009-11-03T11:33:00.002+08:00

Wake Up Call
No Talk. No Excuses.
Just do what it takes to Fight and Win.

2009-10-31T22:14:00.000+08:00

"Mr. Cob!"
"Yes, Sir?"
"You're aware of the name of this ship, aren't you Mr. Cob?"
"Very aware, Sir!"
"It bears a proud name, doesn't it Mr. Cob?"
"Very proud, Sir!"
"It represents fine people."
"Very fine people, Sir!"
"Who live in a fine, outstanding state."
"Outstanding, Sir!"
"In the greatest country in the entire world."
"In the entire world, Sir!"
"And what is that name Mr. Cob?"
"ALABAMA, Sir!"

2009-10-30T14:46:00.000+08:00

2009-10-27T23:16:00.000+08:00

cause it is the best way for get over issues which will fade.

2009-10-27T17:44:00.003+08:00

I seriously don't feel like blogging yet I am blogging for the sake of blogging. ;)

For the last 19 years of my life it seems so boring.

For the last 19 years and 9 months of my life I thought the arrows have been pointing right.

For the last 19 years, 9 months and 27 days of my life runs with fixation.

At the 19th year, 9th month, 27th day on the 18th hour of my life, things swirl in change.

Just joking. ;)

2009-10-26T00:17:00.001+08:00

Mr Loh told me to check out the video of Isao Okano. His imbaness is highlighted with his superior timing, speed with mostly 2 techniques Kouchi and Morote Seoi Nage. This is backed up with superior ground work. Love the music too.

Absolute Imbaness.... Drops down and pray to the god of morote and kouichi gari. >.<

2009-10-19T22:38:00.001+08:00

2009-10-16T14:35:00.004+08:00

Is it me or life has always been so boring?

Whatever which used to excite me seems dull.

Passion becomes burden.

Love becomes Hatred.

Nothing ast long enough to excite me.

Swearing and cursing flows like stream

Hidden anger, bubbling lava.

Bright light make things ever so plain ever.

Just like writing paper.

I choose to leap into the darkness.

Given the unknown, in the dark

won't it make me feel alive?

Push me to the edge slowly,

Walking on tight rope in the smoke.

As much I dread, I anticipate it

Slowly but surely. :)

2009-09-04T10:06:00.002+08:00

Just a very short update.

I am going to get very busy during the holidays other than going for ritz carlton F1 attachment and training. I am going to spend the rest of the time training my lazy ass off!

I have too little time to spare.

What about enjoyment? i wonder._.

sigh.

2009-08-29T16:49:00.000+08:00

Basshunter : I Can Walk on Water Lyrics

La La la la la la la la la la la
la la la la la la la la la la la
I will never be afraid again
I will keep on fighting till the end
I can walk on water i can fly
I will keep on fighting till i die
I will never be afraid again
I will keep on fighting till the end
I can walk on water I can fly
I will keep on fighting till i die
La La la la la la la la la la la
la la la la la la la la la la la

2009-08-14T17:41:00.001+08:00

Our group did this video for the RDM last lesson. =)

2009-08-07T01:28:00.000+08:00

Offspring : You're Gonna Go Far, Kid Lyrics
Songwriters: Holland, Dexter; Kriesel, Greg; Wasserman, Kevin

Show me how to lie
You’re getting better all the time
And turning all against the one
Is an art that’s hard to teach
Another clever word
Sets off an unsuspecting herd
And as you step back into line
A mob jumps to their feet

Now dance fucker dance
Man he never had a chance
And no one even knew
It was really only you

And now you steal away
Take him out today
Nice work you did
You’re gonna go far, kid

With a thousand lies
And a good disguise
Hit ‘em right between the eyes
Hit ‘em right between the eyes
When you walk away
Nothing more to say
See the lightning in your eyes
See ‘em running for their lives

Slowly out of line
And drifting closer in your sights
So play it out I’m wide awake
It’s a scene about me
There’s something in your way
And now some nerd is gonna pay
And if you can’t get what you want
Well it’s all because of me

Now dance, fucker, dance
Man, I never had a chance
And no one even knew
It was really only you

And now you’ll lead the way
Show the light of day
Nice work you did
You’re gonna go far, kid
Trust, deceived!

With a thousand lies
And a good disguise
Hit ‘em right between the eyes
Hit ‘em right between the eyes
When you walk away
Nothing more to say
See the lightning in your eyes
See ‘em running for their lives

Now dance, fucker, dance
He never had a chance
And no one even knew
It was really only you

So dance, fucker, dance
I never had a chance
It was really only you

With a thousand lies
And a good disguise
Hit ‘em right between the eyes
Hit ‘em right between the eyes
When you walk away
Nothing more to say
See the lightning in your eyes
See ‘em running for their lives

Clever alibis
Lord of the flies
Hit ‘em right between the eyes
Hit ‘em right between the eyes
When you walk away
Nothing more to say
See the lightning in your eyes
See ‘em running for their lives

2009-08-04T13:39:00.000+08:00

Hope you get well soon! Speedy Recovery. :)

2009-08-01T10:54:00.000+08:00

有人告诉你(原创) 歌手：陈楚生

当火车开入这座陌生的城市,
那是从来就没有见过的霓虹.

我打开离别时你送我的信件,
忽然感到无比的思念.

看不见雪的冬天不夜的城市,
我听见有人欢呼有人在哭泣.

早习惯穿梭冲满诱惑的黑夜,
但却无法忘记你的脸.

有没有人曾告诉你我很爱你,
有没有曾在你日记里哭泣.

有没有人曾告诉你我很在意,
在意这座城市的距离.

当火车开入这座陌生的城市,
那是从来就没有见过的霓虹.

我打开离别时你送我的信件,
忽然感到无比的思念.

看不见雪的冬天不夜的城市,
我听见有人欢呼有人在哭泣.

早习惯穿梭冲满诱惑的黑夜,
但却无法忘记你的脸.

有没有人曾告诉你我很爱你,
有没有曾在你日记里哭泣.

有没有人曾告诉你我很在意,
在意这座城市的距离.

有没有人曾告诉你我很爱你,
有没有曾在你日记里哭泣.

有没有人曾告诉你我很在意,
在意这座城市的距离.

2009-07-31T12:22:00.001+08:00

2009-07-31T11:47:00.000+08:00

December Rain

I always treasured winter, a world of fragile things.
But now I must remember that I, myself, am a fragile being,
that not all things frail are loving, offer solace from the pain,
that peace is never lasting, and that nothing is as cold as December rain.

Crimson is the love, and crimson is the lie.
Crimson is the blood that streaks the floor, that streaks the sky.
Crimson are the wounds of the soul. Crimson is the stain.
Crimson are the tears that mixed and froze with crimson December rain.

I always hoped for solace, a respite from the pain,
but now that I have fallen, I know that solace cannot be gained,
that I have no hope of healing, of washing away the blood,
that life is no longer living and I’d give up breathing if only I could.

Broken is my heart, and broken is my hate.
Broken is the help that came to save, that came too late.
Broken are the joys of hope. Broken is my mind.
Broken are the dreams whose shards cut my soul and bleed me from inside.

I cannot wait for saviors I know I don’t deserve,
but there’s nothing more I hope for after all the pain I’ve seen occur.
And after all the hurt I’ve known, after all the tears that came,
the harshest lesson I’ve learned remains. Nothing is as cold as December rain.

http://likenightrain.deviantart.com/art/December-Rain-25500984

2009-07-31T09:37:00.001+08:00

The Kids Aren't Alright Lyrics

When we were young the future was so bright (whoa)
The old neighborhood was so alive (whoa)
And every kid on the whole damn street (whoa)
was gonna make it big in every beat.

Now the neighborhood's cracked and torn (whoa)
The kids are grown up but their lives are worn(whoa)
How can one little street
Swallow so many lives?

Chorus:
Chances thrown, nothing's free
Longing for,used to be
Still it's hard, hard to see
Fragile lives, shattered dreams

Go!

Jamie had a chance, well she really did (whoa)
Instead she dropped out and had a couple of kids (whoa)
Mark still lives at home cause he's got no job (whoa)
He just plays guitar, smokes a lot of pot

Jay committed suicide (whoa)
Brandon OD'd and died (whoa)
What the hell is going on?
Cruellest dream, reality

Chances thrown, nothing's free
Longing for,used to be
Still it's hard, hard to see
Fragile lives, shattered dreams

Go!

Chances thrown, nothing's free
Longing for, used to be
Still it's hard, hard to see
Fragile lives, shattered dreams

2009-07-30T23:40:00.002+08:00

Some times you just keep telling yourself that everything is all right and it will be fine. One might be all high and happy for a moment. Yet when reality comes knocking on the door, you get double the impact x2. You know youdon't want to look and yet you can't stop your head from turning. In the end you see what you don't want to see... contradicting isn't it?

I want to be happy and normal so I start from scratch again and hoping that things will change for the better. Yet whenever there are starting to signs of improvment, it slumps down again. Why?

whywhywhywhywhywhywhy?! I tried so hard to be normal again and yet I failed. Somehow it is always the fact that I am being treated very much differently. I am not asking for the past to return again but at least be natural. I am trying really hard let go and clear up my emotions somehow or rather I failed.

I keep telling myself. "It is nobody's fault and so just let it go!"

I feel so angry yet I know this anger isn't really caused by anyone. The demons are having a great time digging a hole out of me. =)

I promised myself that I will not blog about unhappy stuff as I only want to read about the joyful events which I have been through. Thus I will be able to remind myself how fortunate I am and not focus on unhappy issues.

Guess I failed again. :) x2

2009-07-29T14:29:00.003+08:00

Went for training yesterday and took the attendance as Daryl is not around. It was kind of disappointing to see that not many year 1s turned up for training. I was pretty pissed off when some of people gave me vague reasons which does'nt fulfil the the meaning of a valid reason. Others just didn't give any notice at all. Well that is very responsible. THANKS. :)

Adelia and Tracy came in the middle and training cause they got lost on their way here. =x HAHAHAHAHAHA. But it is really great having them around cause they are pretty light hearted and it really makes the training more fun!

Thanks Adelia and Tracy for turning up for the training!! It is really great having the both of you around. =)

At around 8.30pm we (Adelia, Tracy, CH, Tim & I) rushed to Changi Airport to receive Mr and Mrs Loh who are coming back from Australia. Mr Loh didn't expect that (CH, Tim and I) will be there to receive him. Hehehehehe :D We should have took a video of his shocked expression when he saw us aside from his daughter and Tracy. :p "Welcome back Mr and Mrs Loh!!"

After receiving them both, we had our dinner at the airport and we chatted for an hour before going home. Overall it is fun and pleasant experience. :) I wish we can have our Island Judo gathering more often!! woohooo! XD

Zhaoz. :)

2009-07-26T21:55:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAHA YOU GUYS CAN'T MISS THIS!!!

AFTER WATCHING THIS VIDEO I FEEL LIKE DANCING WITH THEM wooohoooo!!! :DD

So in love this song. It is so cheeky. ^^

2009-07-24T10:33:00.002+08:00

HEHEHEHE. Something bo liao Murphy and I do for his htm RJ question;p. It is posted on facebook. ;D

HTM Module Problem 12:Business with Pleasure RJ Gone Wrong.

Nadali's RJ

Qn: Will I consider a career in the spa industry? Discuss.

Giving my 20 cents *chink chink* $_$ worth of opinion, I will not only not only consider a career in the spa industry. In fact I will climb the corporate ladder up this Business with PLEASURE. This is because I have prior knowledge in this business of pleasure *hint hint* thus I am able to provide pleasure service.

One the reasons being my head understand the needs for pleasure from my clients. Thus I am able to give good head for my clients and provide them with a memorable service. ^^ Thus I believe my clients will always come back for more from time to time.

I am especially proud of my hand skills whereby I can give a good hand to clients and help them release their stress after a long day at work. :D One of my secret tricks to the trade is spreading sour cream on my hands before massaging. I learnt from the culinary science that sour cream is a dairy product which is high in fats. It acts as an organic lubrication for massage which I rub on my clients and also at the same time it acts an appetizer for the clients. ;D

I believe that it is parental influence which makes me so intensely passionate in pursuing a career in the spa industry. I also learnt a lot of thing from my mother as she opened a spa before and also have taught me the secret of giving pleasure to my customer ;D.I think that what I do will not only give my customer sextifaction but also having my spa being spread through the word of mouth that is a very communication tool :D I believe I will follow this passion work hard to become an owner of the first spa house in Changi. ^^

Nadali (Class F66C)
8##69@myrp.edu.sg

2009-07-14T00:10:00.001+08:00

Nice Piece. :)

2009-07-13T09:40:00.006+08:00

What should I say? ._.

The fight is on this coming August at the Pesta Sukan Judo Competition 2009.

Went for training at IJC yesterday and before I knew it I am part of the team for the Pesta Sukan 2009. ._.

It is really... I don't know. Somehow I feel that I am not ready.

Maybe I am always not ready. LOL.

Go in just for the experience and process as part of growing? Yea I agree...

But there are still doubts lingering in my mind.

I know that I want to win, I need to win. It is the only thing on my mind.

Yet I am so afraid when I make the leap across the ridge I will miss and fall.

This is the demon I have to battle and I seriously need to calm myself down.

Putting too much at stake could make things worse._.

TINGDONGDAMN!!!!!!

2009-07-10T23:44:00.006+08:00

THANKFUL

I Really Really Have alot of things to say... But I just can't really phrase it into words.

I Thank God that my life seems to be getting brighter again these days.

I am glad to say good bye to the much hated gloomy me. And I do not wish to see it again.

I am going to say a little prayer before turning in tonight.

2009-07-06T15:53:00.006+08:00

Goals to achieve:

1. Spend more time with my family especially my parents.

2. Enjoy life with my friends to the fullest before NS.

3. Train hard to be a better Judoka!

4. Do reasonably well in my studies.

5. Let go, forget and be happy. =)

2009-07-01T10:53:00.002+08:00

New Divide

lyrics
Songwriters: Bennington, Chester Charl; Bourdon, Robert; Delson, Brad; Farrell, Dave; Hahn, Joseph; Shinoda, Mike;

I remembered black skies, the lightning all around me
I remembered each flash as time began to blur
Like a startling sign that fate had finally found me
And your voice was all I heard that I get what I deserve

So give me reason to prove me wrong, to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes
Give me reason to fill this hole, connect the space between
Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies across this new divide

There was nothing in sight but memories left abandoned
There was nowhere to hide, the ashes fell like snow
And the ground caved in between where we were standing
And your voice was all I heard that I get what I deserve

So give me reason to prove me wrong, to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes across this new divide

In every loss, in every lie, in every truth that you'd deny
And each regret and each goodbye was a mistake too great to hide
And your voice was all I heard that I get what I deserve

So give me reason to prove me wrong, to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes
Give me reason to fill this hole, connect the space between
Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies across this new divide
Across this new divide, across this new divide.

2009-06-30T07:08:00.000+08:00

Martini Kiss Lyrics
Artist(Band):Senses Fail

Theres poison in my drinking glass
Don't stop just sip it down
And in a swirling masquerade of sound
My body hits the ground
I'm beautiful when I'm asleep,
martini kisses land
on my blistered bloody scarlet lips
the bottles in my hand

Burn out not fade away\
Burn out not fade away - X2
Burn out not fade away/

I'll speak in riddles so you can understand
I'll draw in pencil so you can trace with pen
So in love with me, like sand to wet feet
I'll write both our names into the wet concrete.

We're glistening like silver spoons
Beneath the summer night
Oh can you smell the subtle hint of frost
As the flowers start to cry
The Autumn winds are bringing graves
To all the emerald trees
They're so beautiful in their dismay
The colors slowly bleed

Burn out not fade away\
Burn out not fade away - X2
Burn out not fade away/

I'll speak in riddles so you can understand
I'll draw in pencil so you can trace with pen
So in love with me, like sand to wet feet
I'll write both our names into the wet concrete.

The pawns will fade away
Burn out not fade away
Burn out not fade away
The king's at his checkmate
Burn out not fade away
Burn out not fade away
And I sit here with a sick grin
Choking as I laugh until I die
Burn out not fade away
Burn out not fade away
Burn out not fade away
Burn out not fade away

2009-06-29T13:58:00.003+08:00

I just realised How Bad Tempered am I now adays. Somehow or rather the activities and trainings which I immersed myself into failed to get rid of all the anger and frustration within me.

By making myself as busy as possible I hope to make my mind tired enough not to think.

But I am just like a volcanic lava refusing to cool.

I realised that all the disastisfaction and unhappiness are always the same to begin with.

It refuses to go away.

Just what should I do?

I am just plain stubborn being someone who cannot let go. No matter what answers I try to give to my self I will never be sastisfied.

Just Let is Go!! You done everything you could. Anything more you will be treated like a fool. That is what I will always tell myself.

The stress from school is not coming in at a right time and my recent daily grades are not helping. There is no one but to blame myself.

Fuck it. Why should I care anymore?!!

2009-06-28T22:14:00.004+08:00

WELL! guess I need not say more huh... school is still on tomorrow!!

Just a very brief update... for today we the usual gang went for training at IJC today. Today's training is pretty short have light uchikomi and after that team randori. Chee Long one of the black belt from Budo fought with me today and I fleeew. Woooo XD

After training our club had our bbq at at East Coast Park and we really have loads of fun! Plenty of good food and we played Rugby with frisbee!

And the best part is it is contact rugby using Judo Moves!!! :D

And all of us members just join in and lot of FUN. XD This is seriously greatest bbq I ever had whereby everyone is so outgoing and fun. ^^

Besides the our "Judo Frisbee Rugby" we had tug of war and lucky draw. Tim and I got 2nd for the tug of war wooooo! Ah Langs!! Besides that I got a large prize at the lucky draw. The prizes are boxes of biscuits but I am happy enough.:)

At around 7 plus Mr Yeo brought the Singapore Judo National Coach who is from China. He looks like Kosei Inoue from far OMG! He is an Olympic Judo Quater Finalist for the recent Olympic Games. We had a talk with him about what are his forte throws and how is the national training being conducted. CH and I will be attending the National Training at Singapore Judo Federation this coming Saturday.

Wooohooo! Hello Hell Here we come!! X.x

Okay shall end it off here. :)

2009-06-27T22:06:00.008+08:00

Hohoho! Nice one RP! From 19 H1N1 it has risen to 36 comfirmed cases to date. And we year 2 and 3 students are still going back to attend school on Monday. Just what is the RP Managment thinking?!

Just who is going to be responsible if one of us got the virus in school and pass it to our family and friends?

You can argue that the virus is under control but everyone in this god damn school knows that it ain't. If it is so well controlled, it would not have risen from the intial 2 cases to 19 cases on thursday and now 36 COMFRIMED Cases.

You told us to be socially responsible in dealing with the virus and yet what you are doing now is utterly irresponsible.

Are you going to be responsible if we come back from school and pass the virus to our family?

My parents are nearly 60 years old!!

The Type A H1N1 may be a non lethal strain for now but are the older people able to fight it off easily? It will take a much longer time for them to recover from the effects than younger adults. In the worse case senario whereby they don't, it will cause us down right misery.

PLEASE BE RESPONSIBLE FOR THE WELFARE OF YOUR STUDENTS AND THEIR FAMILY!

The saying holds true... Prevention is better than Cure.

TAMI Flu is not the best solution to this crisis.

Wise Up RP!

2009-06-26T20:53:00.001+08:00

2009-06-26T00:50:00.002+08:00

http://haiirometsuki.blogspot.com/

That is the url of this blog.

Haiiro means gray, ashen

Metsuki means expression of the eyes

Stringing these words together it means gray expression.blogspot.com :)

2009-06-25T20:47:00.001+08:00

WooohooO! This song is classical. :)

我的心裡沒有他

我的心裡只有你　沒有他
你要相信我的情意並不假
只有你才是我夢想
只有你才叫我牽掛
我的心裡沒有他

我的心裡只有你　沒有他
你要相信我的情意並不假
我的眼睛為了你看
我的眉毛為了你畫
從來不是為了他

自從那日送走你回了家
那一天不是我把自己恨
自己罵　只怪我當時沒有把你留下
對著你把心來挖
讓你看上一個明白
看我心裡可有他

我的心裡只有你　沒有他
你要相信我的情意並不假
我的眼淚為了你流
我的眼淚為了你擦
從來不是為了他

tatata!

2009-06-22T19:32:00.002+08:00

一輩子一場夢 Lyrics

一輩子一場夢曲：詞：編：

別問人生有那幾種

別問愛人有幾個

環肥燕瘦秀外慧中誰適誰合

它谷W就風清雲遊又如何

大雨淅瀝瀝淋得我心輕鬆

喝杯酒唱首歌

狂風呼嚕嚕吹走煩惱憂愁

一輩子一場夢

2009-06-22T14:58:00.000+08:00

The Result for this quiz so so true.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

2009-06-21T23:36:00.000+08:00

I have a feeling that something will change, and something good will happen!

2009-06-21T21:28:00.004+08:00

Today is Fathers' Day!!! During breakfast in the morning, I wished my Dad happy birthday and gave him a Chinese tea and cup. I got it yesterday when I went out with Alvin, Dinesh & Mun Yew. I hope my Dad will like it... My bank account is going dry out soon after all the clothes I bought. T.T I am seriously seriously in a bad state of finance right now. I guess I should start starving myself and curb the spending monster within me.

It is a National Emergency!!!!!!!!!! =/

Went for training today and took my grading today. And I passed my 3rd Kyu! But not with flying colors though. ._. Nice Break fall for Babu though... HAHAHA!

Congratulations to all in our wolf pack who passed their Grading:

Novice to 6th Kyu: Small Tim

6th Kyu to 5th Kyu: Big Tim & Babu

5th to 4th Kyu: Chang Hong

4th to 3rd Kyu: Jerrold & I

Finally we are going to see more color belts in our dojo. Now that I get my 3rd Kyu I have a standard to maintain now. I guess I will skip the next grading and train hard!!

I going to train hard, work hard and play hard! It is not going to be easy but I gonna do it.

And Thanks Dinesh for giving the encouragement the other day. I am much more glavanised now. I am prepared to be beaten back and come forth again. I really need alot of confidence.

I AM GIVING MYSELF ONE SEMESTER TO ACHIEVE IT. ;) I am not going to give up during this time.

Wooohoooo!!!

2009-06-17T15:17:00.007+08:00

Skipped the 3rd meeting today cause I am feeling unwell. But I am feeling better now! Sorry Group mates. >.<>

It is going to be super time consuming project which will continue for months.....

The team is made of mark, shuan, jhomel and mark's ex classmate with Nat our marketing facil as the mentor.

And thanks to mark's suggestion, we have a unqiue and great group name. We are call the
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THUNDER BUNNIES!!! XD

Woohoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!

In our group we will be call the thunder bunny 1, 2, 3, 4 & 5. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHA!

Yeah man!!!

No time to think of silly stuff liao! =]

2009-06-17T08:59:00.002+08:00

Last night I have the longest nightmare ever... or should I say I am the nightmare itself.

In the dream I experienced one of the most excruciating pain in my body. It was so painful that I thought it was for real. At the back of my mind I am thinking it is a dream but the extreme pain I am feeling sort of prevented me from waking up from the dream. Subsequently I just give up till the pain subside which was like 5 minutes later.

I woke up again (I am still in my dream) and I see my friends before me. (I shall not mention names here.) They were like looking at me with a different light in their eyes.

One of the them never spoke to me at all while the other person stay quiet for a moment before speaking to me.

He told me that I have grey eyes.

Somehow out of no where I see a mirror and I looked into it. My face look normal except that I have big grey pupils and a grey shadow under my eyes. I was deeply shocked yet somehow I have this kind of surreal feeling.

My friend told me that last night I have turned into a monster and done horrible thing which he refuses to tell me what it is. I tried very hard to recall what it is but I just.... can't remember at all. I can only recall some faint images in my mind but none it made sense to me.

I don't how it happen but suddenly I find myself walking alone on a crowded street and one woman saw me and she nudged the person next to her and exclaim " Look! this person have grey eyes he looks so strange." I picked up my foot steps and walked as fast I can and I reached a traditional chinese double storey restaurant.

As I climbed the stairs of the chinese restaurant I am making to made out the faint images in my mind and with each passing second I am able to form a clearer image.

There was a lot of fur and blood splattered on the floor and stand there is a monster. It has unkempt fur with wicked looking canine fangs. (I assume that it is a werewolf.)

And I realised that monster is me. The next thing I recalled is that I have killed someone. The monster which has been lurking within my heart has came out and spilled blood. And I realised that I have killed someone who is close the friend who didn't speak to me at all.

I feel really sad and confused and there is a sinking feeling in my stomach which torments me greatly. This is as much as what I can remember for this nightmare...
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Somehow this dream connects very much to the reality I faced. I always know there is something lurking and which each passing day it is becoming more and more dominant over what I am now. Maybe one the day that monster might really materialise?

Grey Eyes, Canine Fangs huh... ._.

2009-06-13T10:53:00.001+08:00

Joo Teng took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test!

"Willing to put aside his own ambitions and goals i..."

Click here to read the rest of the results.

2009-06-13T10:39:00.000+08:00

LaMie - Moon and Sun

2009-06-12T22:41:00.002+08:00

HEYYO Everybody^^
Well,i'm joo ting^^,daughter of JOO TENG,=)
Anyway,i'm here to blog for my precious^^

well,I wanna thank you,my dad,for everything^^Thanks for being there when i'm down and be my listening ear every time when i faced problems.The one that gave me useful advice and the one that cheer me up every time when i'm sad=)
And dad uh,you are just so nice that girls wil just crawl over yr head la=)
well,Must really take care of yrself okay,and rmb,i'm just a call or a sms away^^24-hours just for you^^

and yea,i'm so lucky to have such a great dad like you.so caring,kind and understanding^^
and rmb to kick that ''animal''away yea!!so pissed off when you told me that.(teehee!!!)
AND AND AND,i know i have alot of ''and'',but must rmb,take care of yrself and dun fall sick=(
THREE MEALS,Plenty cupsss of water,VITAMINS,everything,understand?
Don;t like last time,when i used to complain to you about yr judo!!!!
haha,
anyway,
AS you said,i dun really need a mummy for now,cos i have such a great,marvellous dad like you,
i'm contented enough^^

and rmb to smile more,produce yr charming smile alright?
Guess i will stop here,
take care yea^^

Loves,
Tingdaughter^^

2009-06-12T21:45:00.000+08:00

Takin' Back My Love

Songwriters: Iglesias, Enrique; Khayat, Nadir; Storm, Frankie

Go ahead just leave, can't hold you, you're free
You take all these things, if they mean so much to you
I gave you your dreams, 'cause you meant the world
So did I deserve to be left here hurt?

You think I don't know you're out of control
I ended up finding all of this from my boys
Girl, you're stone cold, you say it ain't so
You already know I'm not attached to material

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love
My love

Yeah, what did I do but give love to you?
I'm just confused as I stand here and look at you
From head to feet, all that's not me
Go 'head, keep the keys, that's not what I need from you

You think that you know
(I do)
You've made yourself cold
(Oh yeah)
How could you believe them over me, I'm your girl

You're out of control
(So what?)
How could you let go?
(Oh yeah)
Don't you know I'm not attached to material?

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love

So all this love I give you, take it away
(Uh, uh huh)
You think material's the reason I came
(Uh, uh huh)

If I had nothing would you want me to stay
(Uh, uh huh)
You keep your money, take it all away

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love

Ooh, my love
(I'm taking back my love)
Ooh, my love

2009-06-09T20:02:00.002+08:00

http://www.personalityquiz.net/lovetests/lovelook.htm

How do you look at love?

1. The end of the world is coming, if you can save only one kind of animal, which one will you pick?
a. Rabbit
b. Sheep
c. Deer
d. Horse

2. If you had to be an animal which one would you choose?
a. Dog
b. Cat
c. Horse
d. Snake

3. If you have the power to make one species disappear forever, which one will that be?
a. Lion
b. Snake
c. Crocodile
d. Shark

4. If one of the following animals could speak which would you prefer it to be?
a. Sheep
b. Horse
c. Rabbit
d. Bird

5. On an isolated island you can only have one of the following as your companion, which one would you choose?
a. Human
b. Pig
c. Cow
d. Bird

6. If you had the ability to tame all animals, which would you prefer as a pet?
a. Dinosaur
b. White tiger
c. Polar bear
d. Leopard

7. If you could be an animal for 5 minutes which of the following would you prefer to be?
a. Lion
b. Cat
c. Horse
d. Pigeon

Analysis

1. Your choice represents the personality of the person you would be attracted to in real life situation.

a. Rabbit - Cold as ice on the outside, but warm inside.
b. Sheep - Obedient and warm.
c. Deer - Elegant and well-mannered.
d. Horse - Unbridled, free-spirited and free

2. Your choice represents the impression that you would like to give to your partner.

a. Dog - Loyal and faithful.
b. Cat - Stylish
c. Horse - Optimistic
d. Snake - Flexible

3. Your choice represents the behavior that would cause you to break up with your partner.

a. Lion - Your partner's arrogance and authoritative behavior.
b. Snake - Your partner is too emotional and moody and you don't know how to please him/her.
c. Crocodile - Your partner's ruthlessness.
d. Shark - Your partner's insecurity.

4. Your choice represents the kind of relationship that you would like to build with your partner.

a. Sheep - You both know what the other person is thinking without saying a word.
b. Horse - Both of you should be able to talk about everything and anything with no secrets kept.
c. Rabbit - A relationship that makes you feel warm and always in love.
d. Bird - A long-lasting relationship.

5. Your choice shows whether you are capable of committing adultery

a. Human - Probably not.
b. Pig - You can't resist desire and lust so you are likely to commit adultery.
c. Cow - You are tolerant and you will try very hard not to do it.
d. Bird - You don't like to make commitments and are likely to commit adultery.

6. Your choice represents your views about marriage.

a. Dinosaur - You are quite pessimistic and you don't think happy marriages exist anymore nowadays.
b. White tiger - You think marriage is something precious, once you get married, you'll treasure it and your partner very much.
c. Polar bear - You are afraid of marriage, you think it would take away your freedom.
d. Leopard - You always wanted to get married, but in fact, you don't know what it's all about.

7. Your choice represents your views about love at this present moment.

a. Lion - You always thirst for love, you can do anything for it, but you won't fall for it easily.
b. Cat - You are quite self-centered; you think of love as something you can get and trash anytime you want.
c. Horse - You don't want to be tied by a steady relationship, you just want to flirt.
d. Pigeon - You think of love as a commitment for both parties.

Summary:

1. Personality of the person you would be attracted to in real life situation: Unbridled, free-spirited and free

2. Impression that you would like to give to your partner: Stylish

3. The behavior that would cause you to break up with your partner: Your partner's insecurity.

4. The kind of relationship that you would like to build with your partner: A long-lasting relationship.

5. Your choice shows whether you are capable of committing adultery: Probably not.

6. Your views about marriage:
You think marriage is something precious, once you get married, you'll treasure it and your partner very much.

7. Your views about love at this present moment:
You always thirst for love, you can do anything for it, but you won't fall for it easily.

2009-06-07T23:18:00.008+08:00

Yuka Kobayashi (小林由佳)
Karateka & Model

Name: Yuka Kobayashi (小林由佳)
Born: 22 March 1986
Place of Birth: Tokyo, Japan
Nationality: Japanese
Language: Japanese
Profession: Karateka & Model
Height: 151cm
Measurements: 80cm 58cm 80cm
Weight: 45kg

2009-06-05T22:12:00.010+08:00

Went for the Judo bbq near downtown east yesterday. After the bbq, Tim, Jerrold, Eugene and I stayed over to ton cause of some reason tim have to return the rental bike the next day at 10am. Took a couple of nice pictures of the night view as well as a morning view of the sea during sun rise.

Beautiful Night View of the dock.

The breathtaking sea view during sun rise.

Feel so happy seeing the sea! It really makes me feel so relax and happppy! woohooo!XD

2009-06-03T23:48:00.004+08:00

Artist/Band:
Collective Soul

Album:Dosage

Are these times contagious
I've never been this bored before
Is this the prize I've waited for
Now as the hours passing
There's nothing left here to insure
I long to find a messenger

Have I got a long way to run
Yeah, I run

Is there a cure among us
From this processed sanity
I weaken with each voice that sings
In this world of purchase
I'm going to buy back memories
To awaken some old qualities

Have I got a long way to run
Yeah, I run

2009-06-03T23:00:00.011+08:00

Pictures from Glitz 2009

2009-06-02T20:05:00.001+08:00

Just came across this Judo Demo Video on You Tube. It made my jaw dropped.:O

2009-06-02T19:59:00.000+08:00

Video of the Our Fight during the glitz (Didn't manage to take down my part)

2009-06-02T17:55:00.018+08:00

Went with the judo ig for the RP glitz award ceremony last night. It was really a memorable day with loads of fun and laughter and besides that...... we pulled the biggest stunt in RP history ever.

The setting goes like when the MC asks for the senior director to come on stage and hand over the awards. I am suppose to strode in at the most random moment and wave to the stunned audience. Omg it was the most embarrassing moment of my life where by i have to grin and wave like a mad director shouting HIIIIIIIIII! =X it was when our judo performance starts with all the action packed fighting by Daryl (my bodyguard),CH,Tim & Babu (the attackers). The MCs, directors, VIPs and the students are all stunned. Some of them thought i must be an over enthusiastic director or a mad man. >.< Anyway the 30 secs skit ended up with a loud applause from the previously bored audience. I am so glad that we succeeded!!! XD woooooooooooooooooo!!!

After the performance, Daryl and I received the silver meritorious award for sports excellence in RP.

Getting this silver meritorious award is something which i didn't really expect. Although i am the secretary for judo ig, it is not like i really done anything which is very significant for an individual. The rest in the IG has contributed their fair share which is equal if not more than me. Their passion towards our judo ig is significant as well. Thus I will like to thank all the members of our wolf pack for standing together and helping one another during the most trying times. Besides them I will also like to thank...

Kevin
(Our IG Advisor who nominated me for the award)

My Parents
(Even though they nagged me 24/7 for my injuries, they still show their support towards me in judo.)

Mr Loh
(My Coach at Island Judo Club who is like a father and keeps my passion in judo burning.)

Alex
(One of my instructors at Island Judo Club who encourages me all the time.)

My Judo Mates- CH, Babu,Jerrold, Tim, Siti, Aaron & of course my president Daryl!!
(Again without them I will not be able to make it this far.)

Evon the Coffee bear
(Sorry for making you worry for my knee and thanks for the ointments!)

My classmates
(Thanks for wishing me luck all the time!)
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And the list goes on. I am sorry if I missed out anyone it just that I am putting up the names which I can think of right now. Everyone of you have a significant impact in my life and I thank you for it. Thank you. =D

2009-06-02T09:20:00.001+08:00

Now I'm of consenting age to be forgetting you in a cabaret.
Somewhere downtown where a burlesque queen may even ask my name
As she sheds her skin on stage
I'm seated and sweating to a dance song on the club's P.A.
The strip joint veteran sits two away
Smirking between dignified sips of his dignified peach and lime daiquiri

And isn't this exactly where you'd like me
I'm exactly where you'd like me, you know
Praying for love in a lap dance and paying in naivety
Oh, isn't this exactly where you'd like me
I'm exactly where you'd like me, you know
Praying for love in a lap dance and paying in naivety

But, but I'm afraid that I
Well, I may have faked it
And I wouldn't be caught dead in this place

Well, I'm afraid that I
Well, that's right, well I may have faked it
And I wouldn't be caught dead in this place

And isn't this exactly where you'd like me
I'm exactly where you'd like me, you know
Praying for love in a lap dance and paying in naivety
Oh, isn't this exactly where you'd like me
I'm exactly where you'd like me, you know
Praying for love in a lap dance and paying in naivety

Well, I'm afraid that I
Well, I may have faked it
And I wouldn't be caught dead in this place

Well, I'm afraid that I
Well, that's right, well I may have faked it
And I wouldn't be caught dead in this place

And isn't this exactly where you'd like me
I'm exactly where you'd like me, you know
Praying for love in a lap dance and paying in naivety
Oh, isn't this exactly where you'd like me
I'm exactly where you'd like me, you know
Praying for love in a lap dance and paying in naivety

Praying for love and paying in naivety
Praying for love and paying in naivety, oh

2009-06-01T10:41:00.006+08:00

hey hey! it has been a long time since i updated. Horraay! it is finally the holiday period again and during this two weeks holiday i am going to do a lot of things and enjoy my life to fullest. :D during this holiday, I am going for trainings (as usual), class BBQ, hanging out more with my buddies and regrettably study for the upcoming UT s. -.-

Went for training yesterday and I got a bloody lip again. Unlike last Tuesday, this kind the bleeding can't really stop. I just continue the sparring with small poh with blood trickling down my chin and staining my gi. After sparring i look into the mirror and i my lips stained red right with blood. (I swear I look like a vampire who just fed on some human.) LOL XD my lips swell straight away and i can't really talk much. >.SEA Games Thailand Cat Mascot!!

The shirt.

For today, I am going meet up the rest for lunch and after that rehearse for the performance for the glitz award tonight. For now, Daryl, Wing and I are getting the Silver Merit award for sports in RP. I hope the rest of the pack are getting it too! However one turn off is that the attire for tonight is formal wear. Sigh it is going to get really very warm and sweaty. All righty! guess i will end here i got to get ready to change. Sayonara!! =D

I wish every thing will turn out for fine like before.

2009-05-23T16:59:00.002+08:00

歌曲：雨一直下 - 张宇

雨一直下气氛不算融洽

在同个屋檐下你渐渐感到心在变化

你爱着他也许也带着恨吧

青春耗了一大半原来只是陪他玩耍

正想离开他他却拿着鲜花

说不着边的话让整个场面更加尴尬

不可思议吗梦在瞬间崩塌

为何当初那么傻还一心想要嫁给他

就是爱到深处才怨他

舍不舍得都断了吧

那是从来都没有后路的悬崖

就是爱到深处才由他

碎了心也要放得下

难道忘了那爱他的伤已密密麻麻

雨一直下气氛不算融洽

在同个屋檐下你渐渐感到心在变化

不可思议吗梦在瞬间崩塌

为何当初那么傻还一心想要嫁给他

就是爱到深处才怨他

舍不舍得都断了吧

那是从来都没有后路的悬崖

就是爱到深处才由他

碎了心也要放得下

难道忘了那爱他的伤已密密麻麻

不要再为了他挣扎不要再为他左牵右挂

今后不管他爱不爱谁快乐吗都随他

就是爱到深处才由他

碎了心也要放得下

难道忘了那爱他的伤已密密麻麻

就是爱到深处才怨他

舍不舍得都断了吧

那是从来都没有后路的悬崖

就是爱到深处才由他

碎了心也要放得下

难道忘了那爱他的伤已密密麻麻

2009-05-23T00:52:00.004+08:00

I will like to wish Chang Hong HAPPY 18th Birthday!!! Finally you can buy all the alcohol without being scared. I am sorry that I forget it is your birthday. I am sorry. I am such a bad friend because I am too focused in my own personal problems to take note of your birthday...

We are going to celebrate the birthday of yours, Babu and Jerrold's together!!! Ah Langs!!!=D

Hello I am +rEhPoTsIrHc+

This Picture Is Cool. =)

2009-05-17T16:57:00.010+08:00

Just Came Back from training today and this is my status report:

Injured Wrist
Sprained Ankle
Squeaking Knees
Poor Stamina
Slow reflexes
Broken Spirit

I can barely complete 20 sets of 3 uchikumi and I am turning white. During randori Small Poh just give me a sweep and I was send flying off the mat. I wonder how am I going to go and compete in the Kyu grade competition next Sunday. LOL.

I don't wish to disappoint any one especially Mr Loh who has hopes in me. I wish I can be as focused as before. I guess my green belt has to wait.

I thank my friends Alvin, CH, Babu, Jerrold, Tim, Yvonne, Jessie, Chrischelle and many others who listen to me and offer advice to me.

Thank you Sarah for still caring about me. Thank you. =]

Saw this in CH's blog:

Sad Love Story..

我一言難盡　忍不住傷心　衡量不出愛或不愛之間的距離

2009-05-16T22:39:00.003+08:00

Went Out for supper with Alvin just now and we had a long talk.

Just wondering if the length of time is the litmus test for one's love.

Does it really define the depth and authenticity of the feelings all the time?

Never ever attempt to define the way I love. =)

2009-05-16T22:30:00.002+08:00

From this morning till after afternoon Sarah and I went out to celebrate her Birthday! The actual birthday is on this coming Wednesday but she is fully booked. Anyway though it is still a bit early to say but

HAPPY 18th Birthday Sarahhhh!! :DD

I hope you like the presents and stay happy okay? May the wish you made come true. =]

2009-05-16T18:18:00.002+08:00

Craig David : Insomnia Lyrics

I never thought that I'd fall in love, love, love, love
But it grew from a simple crush, crush, crush, crush
Being without you girl, I was all messed up, up, up, up
When you walked out, said that you'd had enough-nough-nough-nough

Been a fool, girl I know
Didn't expect this is how things would go
Maybe in time, you'll change your mind
Now looking back i wish i could rewind

Because i can't sleep til you're next to me
No i can't live without you no more
Oh i stay up til you're next to me
Til this house feels like it did before
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah

Remember telling my boys that I'd never fall in love, love, love, love
You used to think I'd never find a girl I could trust, trust, trust, trust
And then you walked into my life and it was all about us, us, us, us
But now I'm sitting here thinking I messed the whole thing up, up, up, up

Been a fool (fool), girl I know (know)
Didn't expect this is how things would go
Maybe in time (time), you'll change your mind (mind)
Now looking back i wish i could rewind

Because i can't sleep til you're next to me
No i can't live without you no more (without you no more)
Oh i stay up til you're next to me (to me)
Til this house feels like it did before (Because it)
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah (Ah), Feels like insomnia ah ah

Ah, i just can't go to sleep
Cause it feels like I've fallen for you
It's getting way too deep
And i know that it's love because

I can't sleep til you're next to me
No i can't live without you no more (without you no more)
Oh i stay up til you're next to me (to me)
Til this house feels like it did before
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah

Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah

2009-05-13T08:55:00.006+08:00

Hey guys! it has been quite some time since I updated. Many stuff has happened over the past days. Basically school is pretty fine except that it is getting more tiring day by day and I wish the weekends can come more soon!

YAWN~

talking about weekends, I am roped in at the last minute for the kyu grade competition next Sunday._. i received the sms from my coach Mr Loh 15 minutes before noon yesterday.

"...it is about the kyu grade competition on 24th May. Let me know who want to take part and their weight. You should take part."

O_o

In the end the whole of our gang except Changhong who is still recovering from a slipped disk signed up. Haiz. I am not in the condition to participate for competition. Over the past 3 trainings in school, we have been putting our efforts in teaching the year 1s in their breakfalls and basic throws. Thus we seniors do not have time to train and practise for our shiai.

In terms of stamina, speed and technique i have gotten worse than before. I only have one last training on sunday to train for the competition. T.T Sigh...
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Sarah has been down with cough and sore throat since monday and I hope she will recover soon! Must take care and have your medicine regulary okay?! You must recover fast in time so that I can celebrate for your birthday. :D

Right I shall end the entry for today. Class is starting soon....zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

2009-05-09T22:33:00.000+08:00

Song Title: 我不后悔
Wo Bu Houhui
No Regrets

Artist: 林志颖
Lin Zhiying
Jimmy Lin

说好了不回头不想承诺
缘份尽了你别过头
如果还有什么值得我逗留
我想是你爱过我
只是路无尽头都是路过
什么感受我能带走
眼泪可以不流心碎不能救
看我能否得自由当我松开你的手
一些风沙哽住眼眸
爱你最后一幕却模糊带过
不让疼痛有路追究
我不后悔我曾爱过
只是天涯从此寂寞
远去的渡口彼岸的灯火
人在河流只许漂泊
我不后悔被你爱过
只是不能爱到最后
短暂的幸福拥有就足够
只要舍得就会快乐会快乐

When it's all been said, I won't turn back nor ask for promises

We just weren't meant to be, it's not your fault

If there's anything that would be worth staying for

I think it's that you loved me

This path doesn't end, but we're just passersby

What feelings can I take with me

No tears can take away the heartbreak, nor can they save me

Let's see if I can free myself when I free your hand

The wind blows sand into my eyes

Leaving me with a blurred vision of the final act of our love

I won't leave the pain any way in

I have no regrets, for I have loved

But my world will henceforth be a lonely one

Lights glimmer on that distant shore

And we humans can but float in the river of life

I have no regrets, for I was loved by you

Though that love couldn't last till the end of time

Having had that joy for a short time will suffice

If only I could cast it off, I would be happy, I would be happy

2009-05-09T21:08:00.000+08:00

Running Away SONG LYRICS

Midnight Hour

Don't lie and say that it's OK.
It's alright if there's nothing more to say.
So I'm running away.
I'm leaving this place.
Yeah, I'm running away.
I'm running away.

Don't tell me I'm the one to blame.
It's too late for you to make me stay.
No, I won't stay.
So I'm running away.
I'm leaving this place.
Yeah, I'm running away.
I'm running away.

And faster than you can follow me from this lonely place.
And farther than you can find me, I'm leaving
Yeah I'm leaving today.
And I, I'll never let you find me.
I'm leaving you behind with the past
No, I won't look back.
And I don't want to hear your reasons.
Don't want to hear you tell me why I should stay.

And try, and try to understand me
And try to understand what I say when I say I can't stay
I, I'm moving on from this place
I'm leaving and I won't quit running away.

I'm running away.
I'm leaving this place.
Yeah, I'm running away.
I'm running away.

2009-05-05T23:41:00.003+08:00

yoohoo! i am here to update my blog again at someone's request><>

I like you so much that I am not afraid to be seen with you anywhere.
When I am with you, i will wish so hard for time to stop at that point of time.
Whatever you did, it makes me feel like I have received the greatest present in the world.
When our fingers interlocked, it makes me feel like holding this hand and protect it from all the bad things in the world.
You made me want to be your guardian angel, standing by you no matter what and support you.
All these I am doing it because I want to be the man you need instead of the guy you want.

I will never forget 06 May 2009
I love you. =]

2009-05-02T21:47:00.003+08:00

Hello, for this morning I am suppose to meet Alvin & Mun at 9.30 am for a jog. But Alvin smsed me in at 8 telling me that Mun is not coming so we canceled the the morning run. LOL. Woke up during noon instead and met Alvin for his lunch at LJS. After which I went to Lot 1's NTUC to shop for ingredients to cook the spaghetti for Sarah. XD Since I have no tupper ware I went to Alvin's house and borrowed his. THANKS ALVIN!

On the way home, Sarah asked me to tag along with her to orchard for an outing with her SGcafe friends. The meeting time is at 15oohrs and i received the sms at 1440. Whooosh~! I rushed back home, put the stuff, bathed and I am out of my house at 1500. FAST RIGHT?!!! I am fast and efficient okaay!!! XD

Met up with Sarah at JE and took the train to Orchard. Got a cupcake baked by her mom and her. It is THE MOST DELICIOUS CUPCAKE I EVER HAVE IN MY LIFE!!! At there I met the 3 friends of hers and they are very nice to talk to!! ( No worries Sarah, we can get along*) The outing is basically quite enjoyable and fun. ;)

Before going home I send her out at Bukit Gombak mrt.

I wish everyday can be like this. :D

Okaaay that is all for today. BUAIZ!!;)

2009-05-01T20:33:00.005+08:00

Today was one of one the greatest day of my life. Not that the others are not that great. But TODAY is just GREAT XD

enoeht.

2009-05-01T09:44:00.007+08:00

LAST NIGHT. I have the MOST AWESOME power point presentation slides for my whole RP life. XD
WAHAHAHA! It started out as something pretty random just as a note of taking down what are her likes and dislikes. =X But in the end she completed the details for me. So tata!!! XD

and and and. someone is stalking my blog entries la. +.+ OMG my super unglam pictures are coming out. OMG. >.<

Guess this will be short update for now. buaiz!

*my bubble of happiness please don't burst it.*

2009-04-29T23:31:00.000+08:00

Listening to my feelings now. ._.

2009-04-29T21:21:00.000+08:00

IN RED: TRUE

IN BLUE: SUBJECTIVE

IN GREEN: FALSE

IN ORANGE: THOUGHTS

CAPRICORN MAN

A man in this Zodiac will has a pair of round big beautiful eyes, a nice structure jaw line. He is a good listener and can understand everything easily and clearly. He can guess what you will say before you even say it. He often shakes his head or touch his hair. He is a big built, but he will tend to have a small ear. He tends to have a darker shade of hair and eyes' color. He will likely have a short and strong neck, broad shoulder, muscular, strong hands and grips. He has a shorter fingers compare to the man of the same size and same height in the other zodiac. His hands can work well at the same time can protect and care for his woman. (I really think so!)
His height will be proportional to his weight. He will walk firmly and always take a big long step. As he walks he will look around in caution with no disturbance from his problems at present or in the past. He likes to watch things built with fascinate and wonder about how it is done, so you could see him watching a construction site and not get bored.

He is a good dancer. He is a careful person in instinct, so even at dance floor, he will already have to know what in front or behind him before he will take any steps.

Green is his favorite color. You will mostly see him wear green, navy, blue, or brown. In all 12 Zodiacs, he is the one who can get the most satisfaction from possession of beautiful thing, and cherish it as if it is very valuable to him even it is just a crystal ball made in France.

It is his luck that he hardly has to chase after woman. (Really meh?!) They always come themselves without his invitation.(This will never happen!) He likes to treat his guest in his house than visiting his guest at their house. He does not like to be a center of attention, so if you need his help, you have to look up for him. He lives his life in stability and simplicity. Every decision made are already "Sure" and carefully thought out. (YES!) He will not do what he has been asked to do if he is not interested in doing it.(ABSOLUTELY TRUE.) He acts casually but in reality, he always doing things seriously.( ^^)
He loves peaceful and quiet environment so in his free time, he will stay at home instead of going out and look for adventure. He loves nature and dreams of a nice and quiet house with lots of trees, or he may dream of a house in a beautiful countryside.

He will let you have freedoms and watching you in a distance. If you are over doing something, he will let you know by his icy cold look. (OMG SO ACCURATE!) He is the perfect lover in all the Zodiac for nothing he will not do for his love one.(I vouch for that!) He won't allow people to laugh at him or think he is a joker, so he will spent for himself luxury for what it is worth.

He likes neat and well dressed woman,(YESH!) so do not be a slop if you are dating
this guy. If you do that he will loose his face. He is the romantic type who would dance with you under the moon light. (DARN WELL I WILL DO THAT! By the light of the silvery Moon!)
Love will make him shines and you will see it in his face. (AHEM SHY*)He will not say it out loud, you have to know it yourself.

CAPRICORN WOMAN

A tall slim, cool and quiet woman. Once she is mad she can be very fierce. She can work better than some men and she is very high confident woman. In her opinion, woman is not just a flower or decoration at home or at an office and certainly not a weak sex who needs protection.

She likes to control and hide her weak emotions. She will never try to change anyone, but she will learn to accept them as they are. If she does not like someone , she will not comments or criticize but she will completely ignore that person.

She hate plastic and an artificial flower because it make her feel that you are not being sincere. She loves real flower and it's scent. She loves a guy who wear after shave cologne. If you are a type of a guy who wear your Jean one month before washing, or wear an old sneaker, then you can forget about her.

She loves music and nature even there is a rare case otherwise. She loves to go picnic in nature, so if you don't have so much time for her, you can take her fishing too.

She is not as jealous as Aquarius or Leo woman, but do not cross the line O.K. Better not to see she gets mad, especially in front of public when she feels like loosing face. She loves to make up and dress perfectly and very neat, so never rush her for this matter.

She has her own goal in life and does not care if you have a doctorate degree or not, if she thinks you are not bright then she will not care about you at all. She likes smart people by character not by certificate shown. If you can not show her this quality, go and take a bus and go to the next stop.

She does not like a dreamer who talk about his dream but never put his hands in action to make it happens. Don't bother to tell her "everyone is doing it, you should do it too", or "I think you should do it, it's good for you", because she will do what she wants to do only.

She is a neat and tidy person, so if your apartment is a pigsty , do not take her there. If you go out on a date with her , try to be presentable such as nice and clean dress, clean nails or else it will be your last date.

She is a cool type and will not nag, so easy on your ears. She is a slow but
sure type. She will always respect and honor you and will never try to make
you loose your face. If she love s you, she will help you in anything you do.

She likes to help people an d expect nothing in return. If she asks you for a
favor and does not get one, she will feel very disappoint. She has a high hope and a high faith and beliefs in her own confident than believing in "Luck".

If she is your wife, you will have nice and clean home and a gourmet cooking. If your parents visit your house, they will be please. She is a 3 in 1 means , a perfect mother, a perfect housewife, a perfect wife or you could say "happily ever after".

__________________

2009-04-25T18:02:00.000+08:00

Just came back from training today and I am feeling a bit down. For today's CJC training, only I from the gang of 5 turned up.

The absentees are:

Chang Hong ( still recovering from his bad knee)

Jerrold ( Down with fever)

Tim ( an Injured Knee from badminton)

Babu ( meeting up his mom at the air port)

Only the Poh brothers, Leo, Henry and I trained with the SJI and CJC judokas today. Throughout the 3 hours of hell training being emo does not help at all. ._.
Well I guess the only good thing about today's training is that it burnt away the excess from the Sakura's buffer last night. ._.

On the journey home, I thought about many things. I suddenly feel like I am someone standing in front of a cold dark tunnel.

Not knowing what is on the other side of the tunnel and how long will it take. I choose to gamble on the uncertainty and take the plunge.

Will it be a doorway haven or just a dead end?

This I do not know. Armed with my feelings, I will just walk on. walk on. ._.

Even if it is not promised, I will keep walking to the future in which you are.

2009-04-24T16:41:00.000+08:00

WOOOhhooooo~! Finally the weekends are here. For today I had my CRM module lesson and the faciliator is sooo coool and nice. XD It was a really fun day full of laughters. For the first time in the week, my group need not present as we came in first for the class activity during the second meeting.

I can say that CRM is one of my favourite topics besides culinary and tourism. Well how much I like the module depends on the faciliator. LOL. =P

And and and... THANKS FOR THE SANDWICHES SARAH!!

I am really really appreciate it... I was almost dying. LOL. so sweet. XD

Mr Loh is bring us over to CJC tomorrow for training. Kind of looking forward to it but Jerrold is down and Babu can't make it due to family matters. =/ Well shall hope for the best tomorrow.

sayonara~

2009-04-20T23:00:00.001+08:00

Whew! the first day of school has passed and I think it is not that bad. Just that it feels abit sian... maybe I am having Monday Blues? ._. But thankfully Sarah talked to me on msn so I didn't rot too much. LOL. Thanks arh. =] Hopefully things will be better for culinary science tommorrow. ._.

And there is training tomorrow!!! Hopefully our dojo will be back again in strength tomorrow. I am looking forward to train with the others & MONSTERS. woooo! =X

Anyway I just finished marking the written test papers for my secondary 3s, 4s and 5s. I am so glad that most of them did well! Especially a couple of them who ranked among the top 3. It is really a pleasant surprise... surprise XD Way to go! I hope to see you guys wear the sergeant rank soon! Jiayouuu. =]

Yawn.. I am so tired guess I will stop here yah.

2009-04-19T21:22:00.000+08:00

The Story Of Tatty Teddy Bear

Read the story through this link, the graphic is cool!:

http://sparklette.net/archives/691/tattyteddy.htm

In my honest opinion this simple story tells a lot more than it says. Everybody is always self conscious of their flaws and thus become very insecure.

You may not be the star of the field and have girls screaming their heads off for you.

You may not be the school belle who has guys stumbling back to sneak a second look at you.

You may be an average Joe or plain Jane who may never be in the lime light.

No matter how lonely you get, there will always always be someone out there who love you for your flaws.

To them your flaws is the essence of perfection for them. I am sure. =]

That is the moral of the story for the tatty bear!

Guys, if you want to get a teddy bear for your female friends or girlfriend this is the BEST BEAR. Tell them that for all their flaws you love them for what they are. I am sure that will bring a smile on their faces. =]

2009-04-19T16:54:00.001+08:00

Your Heart Craves Love

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

2009-04-18T23:36:00.000+08:00

I just love singing this OLD SONG by Guang Liang.

Guang Liang - Tong Hua

Chinese Lyrics

忘了有多久再沒聽到你
對我說你最愛的故事
我想了很久我開始慌了
是不是我又做錯了什麼

你哭著對我說童話裡都是騙人的
我不可能是你的王子
也許你不會懂從你說愛我以後
我的天空星星都亮了

我願變成童話裡你愛的那個天使
張開雙手變成翅膀守護你
你要相信相信我們會像童話故事裡
幸福和快樂是結局

一起寫我們的結局

English Translation

I forget how long it's been since I last heard you
tell me your favorite story
I've thought about it for a long time, I start to get confused
Have I done something wrong again?

Crying, you told me that all fairytales were lies
I can't possibly be your prince
Maybe you won't understand that after you told me that you loved me
all the stars lit up in the sky

I am willing to be that angel that you loved most in the fairytales
My open arms turning into wings to protect you
You have to believe, believe that we will be like those inside a fairytale
where it is a happy ending

Writing our ending together

2009-04-18T11:47:00.001+08:00

Hello peeps I am here to do a very short update. For the past 3 days I have been away helping out for the Freshmen Orientation with my judo ig. Though the going gets tough, but the tough gets going! Despite the stressful situations at times which cause us to get frustrated among ourselves, we always laughed it off in the end. I guess acting like idiots to distress works well as distraction to make us calm down. At the end of the day, we will realise that we are not really angry with one another but just tensed out by what is happening. =]

Our Wolf Pack is as United as Ever and a force to be reckon with.

Way to go Wolves!!!

Woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!

Bunch of retarded Gangster Wannabes =X
O.o
Crime Scene =p

There were the wolves of Mibu.

We are the wolves of Judo!!

2009-04-13T22:59:00.000+08:00

OMG. I really mean OH MY GOD. I am seeing my god.

Full name: Toshihiko Koga
Original name: 稔彦古賀
Gender: Male
Height: 5'7" (169 cm)
Weight: 172 lbs (78 kg)
Born: November 21, 1967 in [unknown], Fukuoka, Japan
Country: Japan
Sport: Judo

Medals: 1 Gold, 1 Silver (2 Total)

Results

Glossary ▪ ▪

Games	Age	City	Sport	Event	Team	NOC	Finish	Medal
1988 Summer	20	Seoul	Judo	Men's Lightweight	Japan	JPN	13T
1992 Summer	24	Barcelona	Judo	Men's Lightweight	Japan	JPN	1	Gold
1996 Summer	28	Atlanta	Judo	Men's Half-Middleweight	Japan	JPN	2	Silver

Japan's Toshihiko Koga flips and defeats Bronislaw Wolkowic of Poland during the men's 78 kgs judo event. (2006 Atlanta Olympic Games)

Here is a preview of one of his videos showcasing his famous throw and competitions.

"Koga - A New Wind"

I SO WANNA LAY MY Grubby PAWS ON THIS VIDEO.

This is a compilation of his famous video on youtube... Ohhhhh Koga Sama~! XD

If I ever have even 1/4 of his prowess. ._.

2009-04-12T23:15:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow is going to be damn boring day for me. Basically I have nothing much to do in the day until the evening. In the evening, I am going to meet Daryl to attend the photo shoot and briefing for the Sport on Ambassador. Sigh. In my deepest feeling, I don't really feel that I deserve to be one of the sport ambassadors for RP. Due to my competition trainings and fever a few weeks ago, I have missed the important events held. Well it is by some luck that I got selected to be one of the representatives for RP. LOL. Or Maybe it isn't not luck ? ._.

Shall see how it goes...

In exactly a week's time school is starting again and I am face with many uncertainties in me. Once again I am thrust into a challenging environment with new responsibilities making it hard for me to keep my goals in equilibrium.

However.

I believe I can do it and make it out in one piece even though life is going to be bitch. ;)

Well... just ranting away.

2009-04-11T13:29:00.001+08:00



What's Your Kissing Style?

teh joo teng, you are as romantic as they come. Splash on the mush and more. You have grown up on a healthy diet of romance books and it shows. For you a kiss is a physical reaction to a strong feeling and not the other way round.

Want to know about yourself? Take this test at

2009-04-10T23:55:00.000+08:00

TM Revolution Vestige

English Adapted Lyrics

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My open hand was stained with blood,
The fractured dream was left to die,
It fell apart, having been crushed with a clenched fist.
These endless wings, so grandly spread,
Have become to me just as a chain.
Their weight, so dense, have disabled me from moving.

Like a child's the innocent eyes
Of people start to die.
Within the depths of disillusion,
They look for fleeting stars.

With these our lives,
The elevated lights,
They will be born, caused to bloom forth.
Here lies our fate,
To continue on unceasingly.
Carved in radience, the precious times scar as our remaining vestiges.

Our times were stopped, my tears were shed,
But to my life replacement was found.
I'm left to ask, is all I love fated to fade?

The sheer thought of a tomorrow
A dream painful to stir up,
An illusion much like feathers falling from the sky.
If they can say,
That this dazed pain with in,
Is truly what "to live" means,
Then the only truth is the bright and never fading you,
Leaving only scatterings,
Of our dazzling remains,
That so rapidly decay.

2009-04-10T02:07:00.000+08:00

It is only natural that I reciprocate with COURTESY! =X

Guess Who is the ORANGE FREEK?

I already know what you gonna say.

you are welcome SARAHHHHHH...RAHHHHH!!

2009-04-10T01:46:00.001+08:00

HEY YO! Guess what? I got a NEW NICK NAME and it is call:

JELLY THING (JT) ><

THANKS ALOT ARH SARAH HOONNNNN! ._.

2009-04-08T21:06:00.000+08:00

This afternoon I went back to AES with Alvin and his junior Jonathan for training. Today is also the last training for my Secondary 4s juniors and two of them got promoted to SI. Congrats Nasrul and Putri! :) The same wishes go for the rest of my graduating juniors and I hope that all of you will do well in your exams!

Honestly today's parade overwhelmed me a little as with a flash of an eye. 4 years flew past when I just became a CI and all of you joined as my Secondary 1s. These 4 years we have grown and changed together as instructor and cadets. From the kids you were all of you have become responsible leaders now. T.T I am really amazed. I am proud of you guys! :D

After training I took a picture with my best friend Alvin. I guess this will be one of my last pictures in uniform.

Best Buddies

I was told that I am a unpredictable guy today. Well maybe I have split personalities? LOL. ._.

And I was also asked what is the criteria of my ideal girlfriend. This is my answer:

O.o

Ahahahaha! I am just JOKING. Well I am not going to let the whole world know about my expectations here. ;)

2009-04-07T23:59:00.000+08:00

Today I started on my mission to get rid of my insomnia by going to gym with CH. In the gym, I went to one of the machines to row for 1.5km. After that I did my sit ups and pull up at the fitness corner outside the hostel. Thanks to that now my arms are like jelly. But I am not feeling any tired. ._.

After workout, we met up with Tim and cut our hair below my house. Tim got his grass like hair tidied and CH finally decide to cut short his hair!!! Both of them looks nice and charming enough now to sweep any girl off their feet. (just exaggerating) But they really look much much better. :)

After which they came up to my house and we played Battle Tanks for 2 hours plus. I guess that pretty much wrap up a fun day. :D

COFFEE
Meow is addicted. ._.

2009-04-07T02:52:00.000+08:00

You can roughly guess why am I putting up this post at such hour.

0253hrs/07April

I am suffering from Insomnia for the past two days. Even though I had training on Sunday and Brazilian jujitsu 5 hours ago I can't feel any tiredness. So basically my body clock is badly screwed up. ._.

T.T

2009-04-07T00:21:00.001+08:00



How Well Do You Manage Anger?

teh joo teng, you are indeed a cool cucumber You don't like being taken for granted, you stand up for yourself and you don't look at every difficult situation as life-threatening. You are able to focus on the matter at hand and resolve conflicts in a quiet and comfortable way. You stand up for your rights but are also willing to respect other's. On analysing the situation, you may choose to keep quiet since but that’s out of choice and your clear-thinking approach. You are comfortable with yourself and while you definitely have your angry moments, you are usually able to focus on the situation and find a way out. Every family needs a calm cookie like you!

Want to know about yourself? Take this test at

2009-04-06T23:25:00.001+08:00



How Romantic I Am?

teh joo teng, you appear to have a well-balanced romantic self. While you may get flutters in your stomach when you meet someone you are very attracted to, you do not let your romantic-self entirely dictate how you proceed. You will ask yourself if there is a chance this relationship will work before allowing yourself to fall in love. Even if you feel a romantic connection is viable from a practical sense, you will not just allow yourself to be swept away. You do not have many illusions about love. While you may feel a very deep attachment to someone, you know love rarely conquers all. You know successful relationships take work and compromise and a desire by those involved to make their relationship work. Candlelight dinners and words of endless love may be nice, but they don't pay the bills or get the dishes washed. The middle ground on the romanticism scale is neither entirely safe nor entirely lackluster. However it does not carry the weight of a romantic failure based upon being swooped off your feet. Nor is the middle ground so devoid of romanticism that you feel like you are living with a sibling. Also, there is quite a bit of evidence that with your outlook on romanticism your relationship has a very good chance of succeeding.

Want to know about yourself? Take this test at

2009-04-06T11:33:00.000+08:00

I got this song from Changhong's blog. It is not too bad of a Korean song. ;)

Haeng Bok Ha Gil Ba Rae

Translation:
You turn your head and crying

I hate you being like this, thats why Im crying too
Im missing you, missing you so much that Im hurt
Hope youll be happy with my love even if Im dead

Haaa.....

Turn your head if youre tired, Ill be there
Because I left your tears behind
I left you first because I dont want to see you alone...
Since now I cant love you anymore

Im missing you so much that Im hurt
I hope youll be happy with my love even if Im dead
I Hope youll be happy.hope youll be happy

2009-04-05T21:15:00.000+08:00

鋼の錬金術師『ブラーチャ』FULL METAL ALCHEMIST "БРАТЬЯ"

Come on man! this music is cool. And the Jap Girl who plays the instrument is amazing. Too bad she doesn't show her face huh? =X

2009-04-04T22:24:00.000+08:00

For today, I met up with Changhong at CWP and we walked up and down talking and looking. *blink*
Jerrold and Tim joined us shortly and we went to the theater to watch the Shinjuku Incident.

Basically it is about a bunch of Chinese illegal immigrants striving to live in the Japanese Underworld. Initially I find it cool because it is about the Japanese Yakuza (I like anything Jap). But less than 30 minutes into the show it is becoming lame. The action scenes are few and Those bloody scenes are not really bloody at all. I ended up laughing off my seat at how those dismembered parts go flying around. This show sucks. The only plus points are the pretty female casts in the Japanese Kimonos. *Glup*

PS: I wonder if she is really a Chinese or Japanese. But darn she really looks like a Jap.

Well to end it off I have last thing to say:

THE SHOW SUCKS.

2009-04-04T00:22:00.000+08:00

Years of 17

Bathed in the Silver Moonlight
Laid the grassy hill.
Repetitive the scene is,
Just 17 years ago.

Above the crest the hopeful heart pulsed.
A deviation from old hill's magic,
Steely and unbreakable
It is the chain of fate.

His heart sang solitude's rhythm
as the Soul leaned through the twin windows.
Scanning the horizon
For a lone shadow.
Just like 17 years ago.

Braving North Wind's Stinging Needles
Which bit through his bones and rattled his teeth,
He cried;"

Let the old magic work again,
Just for tonight.
And continue our Four Seasons' dance
Under Zeus's milky way
With this stage for the mortality beneath.
For our passion remains unaged
Just like 17 years ago,
When our lips sealed heavens' vow."

Those words the wind carried
Across the Silver Cresent as shiny as his hopes
To nothingness' desert
Where hopes fade and wishes die.

Such was life's bitter irony
His seeds of love
Sown on barren land.

Though it was 2 years ago I am still proud of my work. =]

2009-04-03T15:30:00.000+08:00

Will I be like him listening to the same song and going through the time loop again and again?

2009-04-03T12:36:00.000+08:00

Wooo! Thanks to Jiahao, Tim and I were invited to train yesterday at NUS. I have to say that those people there are good man! It is truly a great learning experience for me. It is really fun training with these friendly people. But too bad yesterday was their last training before their examination so I guess training will be some other time then. :)

And this is one of my favourite song Meteor!! :D

Song Title: Meteor
Singer:T.M.Revolution
composer:Daisuke Asakura
writer:Akio Inoue

Original / Romaji Lyrics	English Translation
furete temo tsumetai yubisaki kooritsuita tsuki ni terasarete	They touch, although with icy fingertips Illuminated by the frozen moon
hibiwareta kokoro ga moetsukiru yoru o dakukedo isshun no kanata de kirameita omoi ga ai nara maboroshi ni shitemisete	My flawed heart still embraces the night, even as it burns out That feeling that glittered off in the distance for a split-second - If it's love, I'll try for that vision
hanatsu hikari sora ni ochiru nozomu dake no netsu o sasagete shini yuku hoshi no unda honoo ga saigo no yume ni yakarete iruyo	The light is freed and falls through the sky, sacrificing its warmth only for hope The flame that's born of dying starts burns on in this, my final dream
furitsumoru tsumi wa yasashisa ni toge wa emi ni kaete yukeru nara	If the sin that falls and covers everything turns to kindness, and if a thorn could become a smile
chiru magiwa no hana no todokanai sakebi nimo nita inori no hakanasa ga motomeru setsunasa ga futari no deatta toki o yurasu	Like the unheard scream of a flower before it falls The pain that searches for the fragility of a prayer stirs the period when the two of us met
nageki hikari nami ni nomare itami no naka kimi wa mezamete kizutsuketa kara dekiru kizuna ga kodoku o ima egaki hajimeru	The grief and the light are swallowed up by the waves, and in the midst of all this pain, you awaken This bond that could be created because we were hurt is beginning to paint over the loneliness
sosogu inochi kizamu hana de kimiyo douka boku o tsutsunde hikari wa mata sora ni ochiru nozomu dake no netsu o sasagete kuzure ochiyuku ayamachi no hate saigo no yume o mi tsuzuketeruyo	Pouring my life into this; with whatever wings you have left - I'm begging you, please wrap me up in them The light again falls though the sky, sacrificing its warmth only for hope This mistake caves in and comes to an end, and my final dream continues on

Transliterated by Ren

2009-04-02T13:18:00.000+08:00

Last night I got a dream which I desire yet fear most.

2009-04-01T10:02:00.000+08:00

For those who are a fan of werewolves or vampires this is a nice song.

Full Moon Lyrics
Artist(Band):Sonata Arctica

Sitting in a corner all alone,
staring from the bottom of his soul,
watching the night come in from the window window

It'll all collapse tonight, fullmoon is here again
In sickness and in health, understanding so demanding
It has no name, there's one for every season
Makes him insane to know......

Running away from it all
"I'll be safe in the cornfields", he thinks
Hunted by his own,
again he feels the moon rising on the sky

Find a barn which to sleep in, but can he hide anymore
Someone's at the door, understanding too demanding
Can this be wrong, it's love that is not ending
Makes him insane to know.......

She should not lock the open door
(run away, run away, run away)
Fullmoon is on the sky and He's not a man anymore
She sees the change in him but can't
(run away, run away, run away)
See what became out of her man... Full moon

Swimming across the bay,
the night is gray, so calm today
She doesn't wanna wait.
"We've gotta make the love complete tonight..."

In the mist of the morning he cannot fight anymore
Hundred moons or more, he's been howling
Knock on the door, and scream that is soon ending
Mess on the floor again...

She should not lock the open door
(run away, run away, run away)
Fullmoon is on the sky and he's not a man anymore
She see the change in him but can't
(run away, run away, run away)
See what became out of her man

She should not lock the open door
(run away, run away, run away)
Fullmoon is on the sky and he's not a man anymore
She sees the change in him but can't
(run away, run away, run away)
See what became out of her darling man

She should not lock the open door...
(run away, run away, run away)
Full moon is on the sky and he's not a man anymore
Whoa....Whoa!
See what became out of that man

2009-03-29T19:24:00.000+08:00

i don't wish to be a passing train stop. Instead let me be at the end of the line.

2009-03-25T13:33:00.001+08:00

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

2009-03-21T19:58:00.000+08:00

hey yo i am here to blog again and today is just a very short one. Woke up early in the morning to attend the atc meeting at Fajar Secondary. Everything seems okay so far for the sec 3 campsite. I guess this will be the last NPCC camp I will be attending before officially withdrawing fully from my commitment of 7 years? I don't want to be an old salted fish hanging in the wind.

Right now, the only issue nagging on my mind will be the Inter-tiertiary competition at Hwa Chong tommorrow. My first opponent will be some guy from TP and the second round will be with some Uni guy. Hope everything goes okay tommorrow, I shall give my best.

chaoz.

2009-03-15T00:22:00.001+08:00