Mr. Samurai.
date : Sunday, April 15, 2007
Dennis made this video of him smashing his racket. The camera man did not took down his face though. Lol...Dude I know you wanted to get a new racket but you should'nt smash it. Give it to me or donate it to the Salvation Army la....haiz...wasted.=X

date : Thursday, April 12, 2007

Silent Jealousy

music & words: yoshiki

I'm looking for you,
trying to reach your roses,
carried away by the time.

Playing with the silent madness.

You've gone away from the stage,
leaving no words,
there's just fake tears left.

Looking for that bouquet of roses
that are admired through false pearls.

I'm blind insane,
in the red of silence,
now I've lost your love.


Silent Jealousy

music & words: yoshiki

I'm looking for you
Trying to reach your roses
Carried away by the time

Seijaku no kyouki ni katame o tsubusaseta mama

You've gone away from the stage
Leaving no words
There's just fake tears left

isuwari no shinju de kazatta
bara no hanataba o sagasu

I'm blind insane
In the red of silence
Now I've lost your love

genkaku no ai ni kawareta ayatsuri ningyo

Get me on my feet
Get me back to myself
Pretend you love me

yubisaki made shinku ni somatta
ore o mitsumete

<>

Silent Jealousy yume ni ochite
dakishimeru kioku o
Stay in yesterday toki o tomete
kurikaesu kodoku o keshite

Take me back to the memory, to the dream

Silent Jealousy
Don't you leave me alone
kanashimi ni midarete
Kill me, Love

I'm looking for you
Trying to reach your roses
Carried away by the time

winking at the madness of silence

You've gone away
From the stage
Leaving no words
There's just fake tears left

looking for that boquet of roses
that are adorned with the pearls of falsehood

I'm blind insane
In the red of silence
Now I've lost your love

a marionette fed with an illusion of love

Get me on my feet
You dyed my heart in blood
No way to kill my sadness
kill me before you leave !
I can't see anything with
the eye that holds a maddening love
Even now, I miss you
Can't live without you

Silent Jealousy fall into a dream
keep holding on to the memory
Stay in yesterday, stop the time
extinguish the recurring memory

Take me back to the memory, to the dream

Silent Jealousy
Don't you leave me alone
crumbling into sadness
Kill me, Love
I can not stop

Silent Jealousy
Don't you leave me alone
kanashimi ni midarete
modorenai ai o kazaru
kurikaesu kodoku no naka ni

Tell me true doko ni yukeba
kurushimi o aiseru
I still want your love ai o tomete
kurui saku kioku o keshite

"I just wanted to stay with you
I just wanted to feel your breath of grace
I didn't know what to do
I couldn't say anything
When consciousness returned
Everything had been washed away
by the tide of time, even you

But the scars of memory never fade away
I can't stop loving you
Stop my tears
Stop my loving
Kill my memories"

You dyed my heart in blood
No way to kill my sadness
tachisaru mae ni koroshite
kyouki no ai ni dakareta hitomi wa
nani mo mienai
Get me back to myself
Pretend you love me

look at me, stained to
the fingertips with crimson

I can't stand this serenade of solitude
flowing into a sea of ghost images
Even if I hold to my chest
the blood-stained angel that has awoken,
I can not stop

Silent Jealousy
Don't you leave me alone
falling into sadness adorned with the love
that I can't return to,
into this repeating loneliness

Tell me true, wherever I go
I must learn to love pain
I still want your love, stop your love
extinguish the memories that grow into madness

"I just wanted to stay with you
I just wanted to feel your breath of grace
I didn't know what to do
I couldn't say anything
When consciousness returned
Everything had been washed away
by the tide of time, even you

But the scars of memory never fade away
I can't stop loving you
Stop my tears
Stop my loving
Kill my memories

Silent Jealousy

music & words: yoshiki

I'm looking for you,
trying to reach your roses,
carried away by the time.

Playing with the silent madness.

You've gone away from the stage,
leaving no words,
there's just fake tears left.

Looking for that bouquet of roses
that are admired through false pearls.

I'm blind insane,
in the red of silence,
now I've lost your love.

Look at me,
I'm stained to my fingertips in deep red.
I can't stand this song of silence.
Flowing into the sea of phantom images.
Even if I hold my heart,
the blood stained angel that has arisen.
I can not stop.

Silent jealousy,
don't you leave me alone.
Falling into sadness,
adored by love,
that I can't return to.
Into this repetitive solitude.
Tell me true, where ever I go,
I must learn to love this pain.
I still want your love,
stop your love.
Silence the memories
where the madness grows.

I just wanted to stay with you,
I just wanted to feel the breath of your grace.
I didn't know what to do,
I couldn't say anything.
When consciousness returned,
everything had been washed away by the tide, even you.
But the scars of memory never fade away.
I can't stop loving you,
stop my tears,
stop my loving,
kill my memories...

You dyed my heart in blood,
no way to kill my sadness.
Kill me before you leave,
I can't see anything
with the vision set on maddened love.
Even now, I miss you,
I can't live without you...

Silent jealousy,
fall into a dream.
Keep holding on to the memory,
to the dream.
Silent jealousy, don't you leave me alone.
Fading into sadness ...
kill me love....


Look at me,
I'm stained to my fingertips in deep red.
I can't stand this song of silence.
Flowing into the sea of phantom images.
Even if I hold my heart,
the blood stained angel that has arisen.
I can not stop.

Silent jealousy,
don't you leave me alone.
Falling into sadness,
adored by love,
that I can't return to.
Into this repetitive solitude.
Tell me true, where ever I go,
I must learn to love this pain.
I still want your love,
stop your love.
Silence the memories
where the madness grows.

I just wanted to stay with you,
I just wanted to feel the breath of your grace.
I didn't know what to do,
I couldn't say anything.
When consciousness returned,
everything had been washed away by the tide, even you.
But the scars of memory never fade away.
I can't stop loving you,
stop my tears,
stop my loving,
kill my memories...

You dyed my heart in blood,
no way to kill my sadness.
Kill me before you leave,
I can't see anything
with the vision set on maddened love.
Even now, I miss you,
I can't live without you...

Silent jealousy,
fall into a dream.
Keep holding on to the memory,
to the dream.
Silent jealousy, don't you leave me alone.
Fading into sadness ...
kill me love....


date : Tuesday, April 10, 2007



I went and study with the duke (Dinesh) at Bukit Panjang Macdonald's last Sunday afternoon. Stayed there for 3 hours plus making history notes, hearding stuff out from the duke and indulging ourselves with the free flow of drinks. During that period, we met many ex-students from AES. After which, we met up with Alvin for dinner at lot 1. After dinner, Alvin challenged me for 2 rounds of Dayota at arcade. And I beated him hands down! haha!! 2-o =P.

date : Sunday, April 8, 2007
Recently, I have been reading a book titled "Patriots" (The Men Who Started The American Revolution) by A.J LANGGUTH. This book contains a detailed follow up from the birth of the American Revolution to its independence from its colonial master, England. Today, the modern Americans are proud to say they are from the United States. A country which withstood numerous hardships and wars to become of its greatness (well, in their context) today. It was not the first time USA like the others used their glorious past to drum up overwhemling patriotism. The Americans had their revolution in North America. For Europe, France had their French revolution and not forgetting Napoleon famous exploits across the European Continent to back up with. In Asia, China has their 5000 years of history with the feats of the CCP. And closer home, the Indonesians had their blood stained fight for independence against the Dutch.

It seems that stanch patriotism was mainly borned because much blood was shed. And it was equally disturbing in an unorthodox way to see Singapore being relatively peaceful for the past few decades since independence. With the exception of the Indonesian Confrontation which was more of a "tickle on the backside". "Only when there was great sacrifice will people hold dear to what they have." This sentence stood solid till today. But Singapore had not exprienced any disastrous wars or turmoils. One might agrued that the Japanese Invasion of Singapore was one such example. However, I would like to point out that it was in the name of the British army that the locals fought. Most of the time on the pages of textbook, the local fighting force was overshadowed by the European forces who fought. All was fought under the banner of Imperialism instead of independence.

Up till now, our country remains uncertain in the face of a major test such as (war and disasters) . With a new breed of Singaporeans who had not experienced bombs dropping on our doorsteps, everytime seems taken for granted. Sports bags, Swensens and Sentosa [3 S(s)] played a huge part in the lives of young Singaporeans today. The only thing besides enjoyment will be the prison style of a education system which restricted our thoughts and taught us self-centreness.

Despite the government's numerous attempts to foster patriotism by emphasing on our unique status as a melting pot of various racial cultures. It succeeded only to a modest extent. Everyone is deeply aware of their differences and how little they wanted to give for the young nation. With Singapore caught in the modern globalisation, it is increasing more difficult to make people feel staying at "home". All this was provened when 4 out of 10 people interviewed stated they will not stay and fight should war come to Singapore. The ratio rosed when the prospect of a military victory seems dim.

So what leaves us should really war came knocking on our doors? It is a grim picture to look at. Those with better education and financial prospect, easily 1/2 the population will go out of country. The elites of the society, almost all of them will be first to fly. Why? Singapore is only an island of 682.7 sq km and there is nowhere one can run should war came. Unlike America during the revolutionary war where people could shift from Boston to Virgina, the only solution for escape is via overseas. That is provided if one has the money to buy properties abroad. Australia is one such destination. The remaining half will be those who mainly belonged to the lower end of the society because they have no where to run. Everything they possessed are here. Their 3 to 4 room HDB flats and their pinkish card. Just like the South Carolina farmers who took up arms to protect their hills, they will do the same. And I am one of them.

Howver on a side note, the true of outcome should a war come is blur. What I am highlighting here represents my sentiments along with many others I knew. Like all great questions in history such as the Irish question. This could probably be dubbed as the "Singaporean Question". Singapore as a young nation may be going through its "Identity Crisis" just yet. And I fervently prayed that stanch patriotism would not have to be born through bloodshed like the older nations (if avoidable). Or ended up like Venice in 1799.

But one thing remains certain for me and some of my friends that we will stand and fight. Just give me a rifle and I will put on my adidas shoes to do the rest of the job.

date : Thursday, April 5, 2007
After the CIP activity at Ren Ci hospital which is near Novena today. I rented 2 dvds from Laser fair. One of them is Infernal Affairs 2 and the other is a film depicting the American Civil War between the North (Union) and the South (Conferderates).

I started on IA2 first and my eyes were stuck to the screen for almost 2 hours. Watching numerous times did'nt dilute my intense interest for this particular thriller.


I shall start on the American Civil War tommorrow! hoho...=)

date : Wednesday, April 4, 2007
歌曲:我可以
歌手:蔡昮佑 专辑:19

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作词:林唯 蔡昮佑
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演唱:蔡昮佑
蔡昮佑-我可以
寄没有地址的信
这样的情绪有种距离
你放着谁的歌曲
是怎样的心情
能不能说给我听
雨下得好安静
是不是你偷偷在哭泣
幸福真的不容易
在你的背景有我爱你
我可以陪你去看星星
不用再多说明
我就要和你在一起
我不想又再一次和你分离
我多么想每一次的美丽
是因为你
幸福它真的不容易


date : Tuesday, April 3, 2007
Sometimes, one of the most intriguing events in life will be the point one arrived at the crossroad of emotions. No warning was given and one will find his or herself staring up at different arrows pointing at different directions. If one was thoughtful enough, he/she will pause and stuck a thumb between the lips to plan the next step. Some others will just hurried on without looking because they didn't realise before them there are many paths to take. They had a chance to choose just like buying a can of drink at the vending machine. You can choose to have a coke, sprite or pepsi. Unfortunately, I was one of those who failed to ask myself what path I choose to take. Or what button I choose to press. And I ended up on the path looking back and spitting out the distaseful substance which irritaed my taste buds. Just because I forgotten to stop myself and ask what I really wanted. This not path I wanted to take and the flavour I wanted to taste. I had allowed the sight and voices surrounding me to influenced my opinions. I have truly regretted it.

All these came to me after I celebrated my 17th birthday on Christmas day. I looked back as an older self and was disgusted by the 16 year old shell. This time I was determined to set things straight. I wanted to walk back to the crossroad and dump the distasteful drink into the rubbish bin. This time, I will walk the path I wanted and press for the drink I really desired. That became one of my new year resolutions and it took me much of my courage to approach you.

My determination went through and thank you for your forgiveness plus friendship. Finally I was able to lighten the weight I was forced to carry as a result of my naiveness. At last, I was able to crush the can and walk back to the crossroad. This I time I will think very carefully and pick my next course of action.





Many things had happened this week and I hope that it is really all right now between my two brothers. What SY said was right, hardly the people you knew will be as good as the friends you have here. We trained, played and even slept together. Nothing could really break us apart. For only a true friend will be the 1st to kick your ass and scold you in the face. All these were done to prevent you from getting burnt when the fire gets really big. True friends/ brothers know and they care. Lesser ones, know and they heck care...They laughed and walked away. True friends/ brothers laughed but gave a helping hand. I hope all unhappiness were gone between the two after the game of pool. Along with the black ball which rumbled down the hole. And we shall laugh our way home. =)) All of you are considered my brothers and you guys rocked man!

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