Theres poison in my drinking glass Don't stop just sip it down And in a swirling masquerade of sound My body hits the ground I'm beautiful when I'm asleep, martini kisses land on my blistered bloody scarlet lips the bottles in my hand
Burn out not fade away\ Burn out not fade away - X2 Burn out not fade away/
I'll speak in riddles so you can understand I'll draw in pencil so you can trace with pen So in love with me, like sand to wet feet I'll write both our names into the wet concrete.
We're glistening like silver spoons Beneath the summer night Oh can you smell the subtle hint of frost As the flowers start to cry The Autumn winds are bringing graves To all the emerald trees They're so beautiful in their dismay The colors slowly bleed
Burn out not fade away\ Burn out not fade away - X2 Burn out not fade away/
I'll speak in riddles so you can understand I'll draw in pencil so you can trace with pen So in love with me, like sand to wet feet I'll write both our names into the wet concrete.
The pawns will fade away Burn out not fade away Burn out not fade away The king's at his checkmate Burn out not fade away Burn out not fade away And I sit here with a sick grin Choking as I laugh until I die Burn out not fade away Burn out not fade away Burn out not fade away Burn out not fade away
date : Monday, June 29, 2009
I just realised How Bad Tempered am I now adays. Somehow or rather the activities and trainings which I immersed myself into failed to get rid of all the anger and frustration within me.
By making myself as busy as possible I hope to make my mind tired enough not to think.
But I am just like a volcanic lava refusing to cool.
I realised that all the disastisfaction and unhappiness are always the same to begin with.
It refuses to go away.
Just what should I do?
I am just plain stubborn being someone who cannot let go. No matter what answers I try to give to my self I will never be sastisfied.
Just Let is Go!! You done everything you could. Anything more you will be treated like a fool. That is what I will always tell myself.
The stress from school is not coming in at a right time and my recent daily grades are not helping. There is no one but to blame myself.
WELL! guess I need not say more huh... school is still on tomorrow!!
Just a very brief update... for today we the usual gang went for training at IJC today. Today's training is pretty short have light uchikomi and after that team randori. Chee Long one of the black belt from Budo fought with me today and I fleeew. Woooo XD
After training our club had our bbq at at East Coast Park and we really have loads of fun! Plenty of good food and we played Rugby with frisbee!
And the best part is it is contact rugby using Judo Moves!!! :D
And all of us members just join in and lot of FUN. XD This is seriously greatest bbq I ever had whereby everyone is so outgoing and fun. ^^
Besides the our "Judo Frisbee Rugby" we had tug of war and lucky draw. Tim and I got 2nd for the tug of war wooooo! Ah Langs!! Besides that I got a large prize at the lucky draw. The prizes are boxes of biscuits but I am happy enough.:)
At around 7 plus Mr Yeo brought the Singapore Judo National Coach who is from China. He looks like Kosei Inoue from far OMG! He is an Olympic Judo Quater Finalist for the recent Olympic Games. We had a talk with him about what are his forte throws and how is the national training being conducted. CH and I will be attending the National Training at Singapore Judo Federation this coming Saturday.
Wooohooo! Hello Hell Here we come!! X.x
Okay shall end it off here. :)
date : Saturday, June 27, 2009
Hohoho! Nice one RP! From 19 H1N1 it has risen to 36 comfirmed cases to date. And we year 2 and 3 students are still going back to attend school on Monday. Just what is the RP Managment thinking?!
Just who is going to be responsible if one of us got the virus in school and pass it to our family and friends?
You can argue that the virus is under control but everyone in this god damn school knows that it ain't. If it is so well controlled, it would not have risen from the intial 2 cases to 19 cases on thursday and now 36 COMFRIMED Cases.
You told us to besocially responsible in dealing with the virus and yet what you are doing now is utterly irresponsible.
Are you going to be responsible if we come back from school and pass the virus to our family?
My parents are nearly 60 years old!!
The Type A H1N1 may be a non lethal strain for now but are the older people able to fight it off easily? It will take a much longer time for them to recover from the effects than younger adults. In the worse case senario whereby they don't, it will cause us down right misery.
PLEASE BE RESPONSIBLE FOR THE WELFARE OF YOUR STUDENTS AND THEIR FAMILY!
The saying holds true... Prevention is better than Cure.
TAMI Flu is not the best solution to this crisis.
Wise Up RP!
date : Friday, June 26, 2009
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http://haiirometsuki.blogspot.com/
That is the url of this blog.
Haiiro means gray, ashen
Metsuki means expression of the eyes
Stringing these words together it means gray expression.blogspot.com :)
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
date : Sunday, June 21, 2009
I have a feeling that something will change, and something good will happen!
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Today is Fathers' Day!!! During breakfast in the morning, I wished my Dad happy birthday and gave him a Chinese tea and cup. I got it yesterday when I went out with Alvin, Dinesh & Mun Yew. I hope my Dad will like it... My bank account is going dry out soon after all the clothes I bought. T.T I am seriously seriously in a bad state of finance right now. I guess I should start starving myself and curb the spending monster within me.
It is a National Emergency!!!!!!!!!! =/
Went for training today and took my grading today. And I passed my 3rd Kyu! But not with flying colors though. ._. Nice Break fall for Babu though... HAHAHA!
Congratulations to all in our wolf pack who passed their Grading:
Novice to 6th Kyu: Small Tim
6th Kyu to 5th Kyu: Big Tim & Babu
5th to 4th Kyu: Chang Hong
4th to 3rd Kyu: Jerrold & I
Finally we are going to see more color belts in our dojo. Now that I get my 3rd Kyu I have a standard to maintain now. I guess I will skip the next grading and train hard!!
I going to train hard, work hard and play hard! It is not going to be easy but I gonna do it.
And Thanks Dinesh for giving the encouragement the other day. I am much more glavanised now. I am prepared to be beaten back and come forth again. I really need alot of confidence.
I AM GIVING MYSELF ONE SEMESTER TO ACHIEVE IT. ;) I am not going to give up during this time.
Wooohoooo!!!
date : Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Skipped the 3rd meeting today cause I am feeling unwell. But I am feeling better now! Sorry Group mates. >.<>
It is going to be super time consuming project which will continue for months.....
The team is made of mark, shuan, jhomel and mark's ex classmate with Nat our marketing facil as the mentor.
And thanks to mark's suggestion, we have a unqiue and great group name. We are call the
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THUNDER BUNNIES!!! XD
Woohoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!
In our group we will be call the thunder bunny 1, 2, 3, 4 & 5. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHA!
Yeah man!!!
No time to think of silly stuff liao! =]
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Last night I have the longest nightmare ever... or should I say I am the nightmare itself.
In the dream I experienced one of the most excruciating pain in my body. It was so painful that I thought it was for real. At the back of my mind I am thinking it is a dream but the extreme pain I am feeling sort of prevented me from waking up from the dream. Subsequently I just give up till the pain subside which was like 5 minutes later.
I woke up again (I am still in my dream) and I see my friends before me. (I shall not mention names here.) They were like looking at me with a different light in their eyes.
One of the them never spoke to me at all while the other person stay quiet for a moment before speaking to me.
He told me that I have grey eyes.
Somehow out of no where I see a mirror and I looked into it. My face look normal except that I have big grey pupils and a grey shadow under my eyes. I was deeply shocked yet somehow I have this kind of surreal feeling.
My friend told me that last night I have turned into a monster and done horrible thing which he refuses to tell me what it is. I tried very hard to recall what it is but I just.... can't remember at all. I can only recall some faint images in my mind but none it made sense to me.
I don't how it happen but suddenly I find myself walking alone on a crowded street and one woman saw me and she nudged the person next to her and exclaim " Look! this person have grey eyes he looks so strange." I picked up my foot steps and walked as fast I can and I reached a traditional chinese double storey restaurant.
As I climbed the stairs of the chinese restaurant I am making to made out the faint images in my mind and with each passing second I am able to form a clearer image.
There was a lot of fur and blood splattered on the floor and stand there is a monster. It has unkempt fur with wicked looking canine fangs. (I assume that it is a werewolf.)
And I realised that monster is me. The next thing I recalled is that I have killed someone. The monster which has been lurking within my heart has came out and spilled blood. And I realised that I have killed someone who is close the friend who didn't speak to me at all.
I feel really sad and confused and there is a sinking feeling in my stomach which torments me greatly. This is as much as what I can remember for this nightmare... . . . Somehow this dream connects very much to the reality I faced. I always know there is something lurking and which each passing day it is becoming more and more dominant over what I am now. Maybe one the day that monster might really materialise?
Grey Eyes, Canine Fangs huh... ._.
date : Saturday, June 13, 2009
Joo Teng took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test!
"Willing to put aside his own ambitions and goals i..."
HEYYO Everybody^^ Well,i'm joo ting^^,daughter of JOO TENG,=) Anyway,i'm here to blog for my precious^^
well,I wanna thank you,my dad,for everything^^Thanks for being there when i'm down and be my listening ear every time when i faced problems.The one that gave me useful advice and the one that cheer me up every time when i'm sad=) And dad uh,you are just so nice that girls wil just crawl over yr head la=) well,Must really take care of yrself okay,and rmb,i'm just a call or a sms away^^24-hours just for you^^
and yea,i'm so lucky to have such a great dad like you.so caring,kind and understanding^^ and rmb to kick that ''animal''away yea!!so pissed off when you told me that.(teehee!!!) AND AND AND,i know i have alot of ''and'',but must rmb,take care of yrself and dun fall sick=( THREE MEALS,Plenty cupsss of water,VITAMINS,everything,understand? Don;t like last time,when i used to complain to you about yr judo!!!! haha, anyway, AS you said,i dun really need a mummy for now,cos i have such a great,marvellous dad like you, i'm contented enough^^
and rmb to smile more,produce yr charming smile alright? Guess i will stop here, take care yea^^
Go ahead just leave, can't hold you, you're free You take all these things, if they mean so much to you I gave you your dreams, 'cause you meant the world So did I deserve to be left here hurt?
You think I don't know you're out of control I ended up finding all of this from my boys Girl, you're stone cold, you say it ain't so You already know I'm not attached to material
I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love My love
Yeah, what did I do but give love to you? I'm just confused as I stand here and look at you From head to feet, all that's not me Go 'head, keep the keys, that's not what I need from you
You think that you know (I do) You've made yourself cold (Oh yeah) How could you believe them over me, I'm your girl
You're out of control (So what?) How could you let go? (Oh yeah) Don't you know I'm not attached to material?
I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love
I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love
So all this love I give you, take it away (Uh, uh huh) You think material's the reason I came (Uh, uh huh)
If I had nothing would you want me to stay (Uh, uh huh) You keep your money, take it all away
I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love
I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love
I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love
Ooh, my love (I'm taking back my love) Ooh, my love
1. The end of the world is coming, if you can save only one kind of animal, which one will you pick? a. Rabbit b. Sheep c. Deer d. Horse
2. If you had to be an animal which one would you choose? a. Dog b. Cat c. Horse d. Snake
3. If you have the power to make one species disappear forever, which one will that be? a. Lion b. Snake c. Crocodile d. Shark
4. If one of the following animals could speak which would you prefer it to be? a. Sheep b. Horse c. Rabbit d. Bird
5. On an isolated island you can only have one of the following as your companion, which one would you choose? a. Human b. Pig c. Cow d. Bird
6. If you had the ability to tame all animals, which would you prefer as a pet? a. Dinosaur b. White tiger c. Polar bear d. Leopard
7. If you could be an animal for 5 minutes which of the following would you prefer to be? a. Lion b. Cat c. Horse d. Pigeon
Analysis
1. Your choice represents the personality of the person you would be attracted to in real life situation.
a. Rabbit - Cold as ice on the outside, but warm inside. b. Sheep - Obedient and warm. c. Deer - Elegant and well-mannered. d. Horse - Unbridled, free-spirited and free
2. Your choice represents the impression that you would like to give to your partner.
a. Dog - Loyal and faithful. b. Cat - Stylish c. Horse - Optimistic d. Snake - Flexible
3. Your choice represents the behavior that would cause you to break up with your partner.
a. Lion - Your partner's arrogance and authoritative behavior. b. Snake - Your partner is too emotional and moody and you don't know how to please him/her. c. Crocodile - Your partner's ruthlessness. d. Shark - Your partner's insecurity.
4. Your choice represents the kind of relationship that you would like to build with your partner.
a. Sheep - You both know what the other person is thinking without saying a word. b. Horse - Both of you should be able to talk about everything and anything with no secrets kept. c. Rabbit - A relationship that makes you feel warm and always in love. d. Bird - A long-lasting relationship.
5. Your choice shows whether you are capable of committing adultery
a. Human - Probably not. b. Pig - You can't resist desire and lust so you are likely to commit adultery. c. Cow - You are tolerant and you will try very hard not to do it. d. Bird - You don't like to make commitments and are likely to commit adultery.
6. Your choice represents your views about marriage.
a. Dinosaur - You are quite pessimistic and you don't think happy marriages exist anymore nowadays. b. White tiger - You think marriage is something precious, once you get married, you'll treasure it and your partner very much. c. Polar bear - You are afraid of marriage, you think it would take away your freedom. d. Leopard - You always wanted to get married, but in fact, you don't know what it's all about.
7. Your choice represents your views about love at this present moment.
a. Lion - You always thirst for love, you can do anything for it, but you won't fall for it easily. b. Cat - You are quite self-centered; you think of love as something you can get and trash anytime you want. c. Horse - You don't want to be tied by a steady relationship, you just want to flirt. d. Pigeon - You think of love as a commitment for both parties.
Summary:
1. Personality of the person you would be attracted to in real life situation: Unbridled, free-spirited and free
2. Impression that you would like to give to your partner: Stylish
3. The behavior that would cause you to break up with your partner: Your partner's insecurity.
4. The kind of relationship that you would like to build with your partner: A long-lasting relationship.
5. Your choice shows whether you are capable of committing adultery: Probably not.
6.Your views about marriage: You think marriage is something precious, once you get married, you'll treasure it and your partner very much.
7. Your views about love at this present moment: You always thirst for love, you can do anything for it, but you won't fall for it easily.
date : Sunday, June 7, 2009
Yuka Kobayashi (小林由佳) Karateka & Model
Name: Yuka Kobayashi (小林由佳) Born: 22 March 1986 Place of Birth: Tokyo, Japan Nationality: Japanese Language: Japanese Profession: Karateka & Model Height: 151cm Measurements: 80cm 58cm 80cm Weight: 45kg
Went for the Judo bbq near downtown east yesterday. After the bbq, Tim, Jerrold, Eugene and I stayed over to ton cause of some reason tim have to return the rental bike the next day at 10am. Took a couple of nice pictures of the night view as well as a morning view of the sea during sun rise.
Beautiful Night View of the dock.
The breathtaking sea view during sun rise.
Feel so happy seeing the sea! It really makes me feel so relax and happppy! woohooo!XD
date : Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Artist/Band: Collective Soul
Album:Dosage
Are these times contagious I've never been this bored before Is this the prize I've waited for Now as the hours passing There's nothing left here to insure I long to find a messenger
Have I got a long way to run Yeah, I run
Is there a cure among us From this processed sanity I weaken with each voice that sings In this world of purchase I'm going to buy back memories To awaken some old qualities
Just came across this Judo Demo Video on You Tube. It made my jaw dropped.:O
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Video of the Our Fight during the glitz (Didn't manage to take down my part)
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Went with the judo ig for the RP glitz award ceremony last night. It was really a memorable day with loads of fun and laughter and besides that...... we pulled the biggest stunt in RP history ever.
The setting goes like when the MC asks for the senior director to come on stage and hand over the awards. I am suppose to strode in at the most random moment and wave to the stunned audience. Omg it was the most embarrassing moment of my life where by i have to grin and wave like a mad director shouting HIIIIIIIIII! =X it was when our judo performance starts with all the action packed fighting by Daryl (my bodyguard),CH,Tim & Babu (the attackers). The MCs, directors, VIPs and the students are all stunned. Some of them thought i must be an over enthusiastic director or a mad man. >.< Anyway the 30 secs skit ended up with a loud applause from the previously bored audience. I am so glad that we succeeded!!! XD woooooooooooooooooo!!!
After the performance, Daryl and I received the silver meritorious award for sports excellence in RP.
Getting this silver meritorious award is something which i didn't really expect. Although i am the secretary for judo ig, it is not like i really done anything which is very significant for an individual. The rest in the IG has contributed their fair share which is equal if not more than me. Their passion towards our judo ig is significant as well. Thus I will like to thank all the members of our wolf pack for standing together and helping one another during the most trying times. Besides them I will also like to thank...
Kevin (Our IG Advisor who nominated me for the award)
My Parents (Even though they nagged me 24/7 for my injuries, they still show their support towards me in judo.)
Mr Loh (My Coach at Island Judo Club who is like a father and keeps my passion in judo burning.)
Alex (One of my instructors at Island Judo Club who encourages me all the time.)
My Judo Mates- CH, Babu,Jerrold, Tim, Siti, Aaron & of course my president Daryl!! (Again without them I will not be able to make it this far.)
Evon the Coffee bear (Sorry for making you worry for my knee and thanks for the ointments!)
My classmates (Thanks for wishing me luck all the time!) . . . . And the list goes on. I am sorry if I missed out anyone it just that I am putting up the names which I can think of right now. Everyone of you have a significant impact in my life and I thank you for it. Thank you. =D
Now I'm of consenting age to be forgetting you in a cabaret. Somewhere downtown where a burlesque queen may even ask my name As she sheds her skin on stage I'm seated and sweating to a dance song on the club's P.A. The strip joint veteran sits two away Smirking between dignified sips of his dignified peach and lime daiquiri
And isn't this exactly where you'd like me I'm exactly where you'd like me, you know Praying for love in a lap dance and paying in naivety Oh, isn't this exactly where you'd like me I'm exactly where you'd like me, you know Praying for love in a lap dance and paying in naivety
But, but I'm afraid that I Well, I may have faked it And I wouldn't be caught dead in this place
Well, I'm afraid that I Well, that's right, well I may have faked it And I wouldn't be caught dead in this place
And isn't this exactly where you'd like me I'm exactly where you'd like me, you know Praying for love in a lap dance and paying in naivety Oh, isn't this exactly where you'd like me I'm exactly where you'd like me, you know Praying for love in a lap dance and paying in naivety
Well, I'm afraid that I Well, I may have faked it And I wouldn't be caught dead in this place
Well, I'm afraid that I Well, that's right, well I may have faked it And I wouldn't be caught dead in this place
And isn't this exactly where you'd like me I'm exactly where you'd like me, you know Praying for love in a lap dance and paying in naivety Oh, isn't this exactly where you'd like me I'm exactly where you'd like me, you know Praying for love in a lap dance and paying in naivety
Praying for love and paying in naivety Praying for love and paying in naivety, oh
date : Monday, June 1, 2009
hey hey! it has been a long time since i updated. Horraay! it is finally the holiday period again and during this two weeks holiday i am going to do a lot of things and enjoy my life to fullest. :D during this holiday, I am going for trainings (as usual), class BBQ, hanging out more with my buddies and regrettably study for the upcoming UT s. -.-
Went for training yesterday and I got a bloody lip again. Unlike last Tuesday, this kind the bleeding can't really stop. I just continue the sparring with small poh with blood trickling down my chin and staining my gi. After sparring i look into the mirror and i my lips stained red right with blood. (I swear I look like a vampire who just fed on some human.) LOL XD my lips swell straight away and i can't really talk much. >.