I suppose my life has taken for a turn since I know you. Whether it is changing fast or slowly, a change is definite. I understand your feelings and I know that you are not ready. I have to say that what you are thinking now is not wrong at all. PLEASE...do not be pressurise by me or anybody. What matters the most in making this decision to think for yourself. Allow your mind to be clear and your heart to be at peace in making the decision. It does'nt matter how long it takes if at the end of the day, you are happy. =] If need arises, do ignore my feelings too.
As much as I wanted to be to selfish, I want you to be happy and smiling. Whether the result is good or bad, I accept it. =) Love is selfish and in fact I am a very selfish plus possessive person to start with. But a long time ago, I made a mistake and realised that though giving in is much more tougher it is much more meaningful. Call me stupid. =D
Meanwhile I will continue to be your close friend and stay by close to you. Just know that I always set your interest above mine. I hope you will not misunderstand any of my intentions, because for whatever areas in your life be it studies or relationship. I want to see a laughing and smiling you. Please do not let yourself be hurt anymore and should the worse happens just remember our promise okay?
PS: I am not being emo and desperate all right??? LOL!
Anyway, I am feeling pretty washed out and sick now. I just ran 3 rounds around the track during PE with each round consisting of 20 pushups, sit-ups and star-jump consecutively. And Whoosh! it is another round. I ended up with sore muscles and feeling faint. I guess I should not have pushed myself that much since I am still recovering from my cough. I guess I got the kick pretty badly as I almost blackout while smsing when walking to the interchange.. I could barely walk with those jelly legs and I have to rest before going home. LOL!!! =X Nevermind, I am strong de...Joo Teng JIAYOU!! The determined will always prevail! hahaha! Tomorrow will be a better day! Guess I will start training now...wahaha. =D
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