0629am.
So what am I doing here at this hour? I should be sleeping since I slept late at 1 plus. It is like barely 5 hours of sleep? I am physically tired from the judo trainings and gym workouts in the entire week. Yet my mind is still in a whirl like hurricane Katerina. I just need to sort out this mess in my life right now. Will I be able to sort it out without fuss or will it ended in the same way as before? regret and disappointment. I just don't wish to make another decision which will result in the same ending. In Judo I can get thrown badly many times a day but I can't withstand many hits from this. The feeling I have now is one of great uncertainty and regret. Each time the feeling comes it feels as if I just landed in a pool of icy water. It gives me shivers.
I will not be posting about this again and I need to make up my mind.
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I am a moron.
My mind isn't crystal clear now.
Joo Teng.
